"I tell you that in the same way there will be more rejoicing in heaven over one sinner who repents than over ninety-nine righteous persons who do not need to repent." - Luke 15:7
Seemingly, an environment meant for the thermophilic has eased its way into different major cities of Australia... Despite the surroundings of warmth, an empty coldness runs in her heart. Launching the new calender with a series of history that can never be erased, she finds her emotional storehouse drained. Liquid prayers have been collected in the King's jar. A jar for the catalyst once mentioned.
She picks up the book from His shelf and re-read the pages. The pages highlighted the hopes and desires, thoughts and memories that filled the pages so quickly. So much have been written in such a short time. Yet, as the pages hit the new year, a rock bottom storyline has been enacted. The appearance of once again, the same trigger that previously ignited an oxidation potential. Or maybe it never left. Whether or not it was meant to be, she has decided for now to retreat from the catalyst.
She once conveyed the important information to the catalyst, not to erupt the dangerous volcano. The volcano hasn't erupted, yet a lot of dangerous molecular interactions have been occurring within... and in that, causing damage to its host. She doesn't understand the boundary breaking intentions of the invading catalyst. Well, maybe now she does. It might just have been how the catalyst was created, exhibiting both its strengths and weaknesses.
She gathers increasing insulating material and begins the route of protection, with hopeful intent that recovery might take place and sedate the volcano. The process of insulation has re-calibrated her abilities for encountering catalyst interactions - still being extra aware and concerned of it's well-being, yet not delving deeper than processes may require. Difficult, but has to be done.. at least for now.
Questions surround the princess as her mind replays the journey in the pages. She places the book back onto the shelves, returning to a conversation with the King. What will the future pages write? What will the insulation bring about? More fluid flows from the lenses of her being... the trees might suffer a little more these few nights and early mornings, but maybe they would feel good to offer that slight comfort to her needs.
Well... enough of melancholic writings for now.
Here's a sequel of two songs, with a same story. I love them.... the MTV of both are one of the bests stories I've seen. Enjoy..
Part one... watch till the end, that's the most amazing story..
And what happens after that... (watch only after the first video)
It's been a little tough getting the engine started this year. I feel like I'm trying to push into second gear but there's a bit of rust lost in relaxation... and thoughts. Nevertheless, it's going to be a good year ahead. Maybe the first month is going to drag a little bit, counting each second tough to handle.
Why?
Well.. The princess thought she could handle it better than she really can. She has made herself vulnerable once again... Sad face. Maybe she could channel all her energies elsewhere more productive, rather than fuel the melancholic system more than it deserves.
今晚她忍不住掉下眼泪了...
To redirect some light in this oncoming fog, the King draws her towards His voice.
"...I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead,I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus."
- Philippians 3:13-14 (NIV)
And the resounding encouragement once again reminded from the prophetic presbytery last May...
"And you know, work was always meant to be a pleasure. Many
people never realise that work is pleasure. And you love doing the hard stuff.
You love achieving and not because you have a pressure to succeed, or pressure
to perform, but because you love doing the difficult stuff. You just get a joy
over winning. You have that real spirit of an over comer. The words, ‘You are more
than a conqueror really means something to you.” But you say, “I am a
conqueror, give me something to conquer. Give me someone to beat. Give me
someone that no one else is game.”
"There’s been those times when you’ve been frustrated, and
that frustration has come out. And then you started beating up yourself –
“Can’t have that attitude, can’t speak that way, can’t think that way!” But
this courage, and this strength and this fighter within you is not just
yourself. It’s not a flesh thing. The Spirit of the Lord is truly upon you and He’s
on you for victory."
"Because of what you sense in the realm of the Spirit, that’s
transmitted into your being, and you are contagious. You wanna make sure that
others get it, so that you know, it’s what you’re hearing from God, this is the
‘now’ word. It’s not yesterday’s word, it’s not tomorrow’s word. It is the now
word. This is what we are to be doing NOW, this is what God is saying NOW, this
is where we put our energies NOW. And out of that comes spiritual activity."
"You’re not one that sit to let the days grow between your
toes. You wanna make sure you are up and doing what needs to be done. Now some
people misunderstand that and they think that she’s just hard driving. And the
Lord says that this is how He has made you for a purpose because He wants you
to be able to be infectious, so that you share this with others, and that you
actually provoke them into love and good works. Spiritually alert. Spiritually
alive. And spiritually active."
"I’ve called you to be one that will hear my voice and that
would understand the purpose and would initiate the purpose. Don’t hold back
says the Lord, even as I speak to your heart , launch forth and you shall see
good success, says the Lord.
Now, I cause there to be even a creativity in working out my
purposes, says your God. You shall be one that shall understand what it is
needed to happen at that time and you will encourage others to flow along with
it, says the Lord. And you shall have good success.
Sister, I just see that God’s calling you to be an
initiator. He’s calling you to hear from heaven and begin to step out in faith
on that. And there’ll be others that you’ll need to encourage to be a part of
that."
I can't begin to title the year yet... but maybe, the nice title to 2013 will come soon. Till then.
For now... here's a song that comforts and refreshes.
The song that's lately in our morning tea conversations.. :)
Thank God for all the friends He's put into my life.
Although at times I feel like I can't handle them all... tsk tsk.
But God's grace has enabled me to do much.
To be a blessing... and to be blessed by many friends.
Friends... such a necessity... sometimes a pain.. oops.
I might be the pain to someone too.
Everyone's given a different cup to drink. A different car to drive.
A different path to walk. A different gift to use.
I'm still figuring out mine... and how to use it well.
Impromptu trip.
Had the weekend off from work. Yes - I have to work weekends now.
I needed a breather. Some time to let my emotions take a break, and enjoy the nice air and food of Sydney. It was a very quick trip, definitely not the ideal holiday plan for many of the people I know.
The idea was to leave home (Brisbane) at 5am in the Saturday morning, and return at 1pm on Sunday in time for Sunday church service. A lot of people would not understand why I wouldn't skip a Sunday of church to go for a holiday. Or some would not accept my itinerary plans of rushing back to Brisbane on Sunday (thus forgoing half a day of extra 'self-time'), because of Church.
My answer is very simple. And I found myself giving my colleague, who once asked me the same question, this very answer, "I just choose to put God above all other things in my life."
God has graced my trip to Sydney with an awesome bunch of people. People who love God and loved the time God has given us to enjoy. It was like a very thankful and life giving trip, because we kept discovering the little blessings God has placed in our trip. The prayers that stopped the rain. The buses that came at the right time. The taxi driver who was willing to charge us less. The "lap cheong" shop owner who came to start his shop 2 hours before opening hours just because they knew we wanted to buy something... The timing of every single event, the food we ate, the places we went... God left His fingerprint on all of them.
Adriano Zumbo Patisserie - Macaroons, Chocolate Mousse, and the famous V8 cake (photo credits to Chee)
Not only was it a very refreshing trip, I also walked through the same paths I walked together with Atieno back two years ago... Those faith filled little steps back then.. and my today... I think I'm encouraged, and reminded once again of God's faithfulness... and His abilities to bring His promises to pass.
Relationship with God, is a journey.
My prayer... is that more people develop their relationships with God, knowing He is a trustworthy and promise-keeping God.
There are so many burdens I have to lay down before The Lord. And I'm learning to do them... so I can run faster after Him.
Goodnight world. :)
Oh.. yes, Ex-Files Promo Video... after many late nights and God's grace (I really mean this), it's completed. Be blessed.
Someone came to me after today's church service and told me they almost cried after watching the promo video. That comment really meant a lot to me.... such an encouragement in this season. :)
I call it - Va-LIN-tine's day. Haha... ok, Linsanity's caught up on me... I see Jeremy Lin like on every post of my facebook. So much so I'm feeling a little guilty about it.
I'll accredit this 'linsanity obession' to a couple of reasons:
- Jeremy Lin loves God
- Jeremy Lin is a great Asian basketballer
- Jeremy Lin gave credits to God and his team - a humble man
- I love God
- I enjoy watching testimonies of God in people's lives
- I love basketball
- I love Asian... men. HAHAHA..
Anyway.. no, my valentine's day hasn't been special because of Jeremy Lin.
It's been special cuz this year, there's this deep sense of security I feel like I've never felt before. In my walk with God the past years, I've always hoped for a special thing to happen on Vday.. or just something special. But this year, it's like I know, what God has taught me over the past 4 years.. and who my security is in.
This year, my day was special, because I worked hard at work. Deciding to give my all to glorify God, and learn to do my best in my tasks. And I succeeded... and I'm really glad.
And this year, my day was special too, because I spent my evening at Prayer Meeting... because I had things to pray for, because I wanted to touch God and to have that spiritual transaction with Heaven.
OK! Back to my tasks before I head to lala land... try to wake up for an early swim tomorrow at the new UQ Swimming Pool! *hopefully...*?
Alright, before I go... I really need to share this link on my blog.
My all time favourite rapper Jin drops the beat for Jeremy Lin. AYOJIN... AIYA!
Why do all these people I feature on my blog, kinda interlink some how?
Whichever way, I just want to keep them in prayer.
Enjoy.
Chorus
Yeah I been on my grind
reachin' for the top and You've been on my mind
they stready tryin' to stop my shine
but it's always been Yours its never been mine
You always come thru just in the nick of time
You come thru in the nick of time
You come thru in the nick of time
so I give it up to You everytime I shine
Verse 1
See this if life to me to you it's entertainment
its quite intricate and only I can explain it
to say I've come a long way would be an understatement
the moment of truth every single one is savored
chasing greatness not the pressure that it came with
far from picture perfect observe as I paint it
dealing with the games highs and lows
you win some you lose some yeah I suppose
but when the sweet smell of victory is by my nose
I see whats goin' on even when my eyes are closed
guarantee you're not stoppin' me or blockin' me
all I need is one shot promised you'll be shocked to see
the outcome I don't just play to win
everytime I lace up yeah I play for Him
doin' my all to make sure that Your glory is known
while they fighting for the title see the King on His throne
Verse 2
Yes I'm really here to serve You not just pretend to
with each setback I intend to
learn from experience and get better with time
no matter what I achieve none of the credit is mine
in the grand scheme of things You're the head of design
and in any circumstance You said I'll be fine
the ultimate play maker I follow Your lead
never find need to feed into these naysayers
who repeatedly told me that I would never make
You're probably testing me to see if I could take it
the bond between us they could never break it
all that You have given me I shall not forsake it
Your grace patience and all of Your love
which one don't I deserve it's all the above
where amazing happens I love this game
only one reason I'm playing and God is His name
Two days ago, Zhong You asked me to YouTube Jeremy Lin. Then another day later, Jaeson Ma posted something on Jeremy Lin.
Intrigued, I went and checked it out.
I'm really touched and humbled by this young man, his heart for Jesus.
The road hasn't always been easy, but Jeremy has learned to place Jesus in the centre of his life.
Yet, another honest soul, testify and shining for God. A man who is not ashamed to admit that he is still a man weak and susceptible to temptations. A man who despite that, still strives to shine and dedicate each day of his life to God's glory and purpose.
Praise God.
Jeremy Lin's Interview with Good TV
I'm humbled and encouraged.
Thanking and giving all glory to God even in Secular Interviews
After a victory, he was interviewed, in which he gave glory to God immediately. A very humble man when asked, "What did you do to make it happen?" He said, "It's really not about what I did, it was team defense...we played hard together."
And last video:
Do you see the joy he brings to the team when partnering with Christ? I've never really seen much basketball matches that have players smiling like that through the game!
Well, that's wraps up my entry for today.
Go Jeremy Lin, for God! :)
I know it when my heart feels pain. I know it when it hurts.
Over the years, I've learned to openly identify pain with my heart. No cover ups.
So I'm coming to terms with my emotions and how my heart feels at times.
Circumstances do play a role in creating one's worst and best emotions at times. But I'm determined not to let them rule over me.
Easy to say as it is. But what else can I do but pray.
I heard His Spirit calling out within me to channel all that strength and frustrations to prayer.
If my heart wrenches. Wrench in prayer.
If I want to cry, cry liquid prayers.
If I don't understand, pray... it helps.
If I don't see no road ahead that seems straight, pray... and take a step of faith... then another step. Just keep walking.
When will the light at the end of the tunnel show?
Why do us humans cringe at the thoughts of how fearful things can be?
I'm merely human. Not all knowing. I'm afraid of waiting. I'm afraid of not having an answer.
But I got my God who knows it all.
And He's telling me, trust me.
He's telling me, lay your burdens down, and look to me.
"And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus."
- Philippians 4:7 (NIV)
In times like this, thank God for inspiring great songs.
Another song by Michael Jacobs.
Very heart felt and truthful.
He says, "Please listen to the entire song, the first verse is how I was feeling for a long time and I feel that God was pushing me to make this song, so I hope you guys enjoy it! ".
To find out more about the song and what he felt while he wrote it, click the video to go to YouTube. :)
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I have a dream for the media industry. I really do.
Sunday, January 15, 2012
More and more Holy Spirit inspired spoken words.
Here's a great one.
Chinese New Year is around the corner.
I'm praying for my many friends... and family to experience the love, salvation and hope from God this year.
I go to the gym regularly. So I know what this song means for me.
Enjoy.
For the original version?
Haha... why, but nowadays, artists are beginning to bring out the truth in real nakedness and honesty.
Yay, I see growth in the way the Gospel is shared.
It really isn't that much anymore about adopting a set of rules to follow and 'be Holy'. But instead, it's a walk of recognising Grace and walking honestly, allowing God to transform us so who we become, is REAL!
Haha.. rap music!
Didn't know God was hotter than rockin' four sweaters! :)
Decided to take a cyber stroll, and found myself re-reading my old days.
Me, I started blogging since 2003. For the longest time in my life, I wrote on only one blog/diary. All the way till 2008, I found myself paddling between two blogs - this and the old. In 2009, I totally gave up my previous blog... and began filling the new wine skin.
Looking back at those previous entries totally amused, or should I say, amazed me.
Year 2003, that meant I was sixteen going seventeen.
I wonder how this blog will look in another 10 years' time!
Oh well.
Prayer for a Friend
A couple of things have already made it's mark in 2012 for me. Couple of shocking news for a friend I've been praying for since I knew her. From a distance not too far, nor too near, I watched her make it through a couple of significant life stages in her life. All these while I kept her in my prayers, and watched her go through those stages. And in this season, she undergoes another massive life changing stage for her... one that many wouldn't want to go through. But for me, still far yet near, I can only pray, and await God's hand to heal the situation.
Truth without Photoshop
For awhile, I've been going through a book by Bishop T.D Jakes, "Naked but not Ashamed". A great book filled with truths about being ourselves and embracing our lives, sins and weaknesses, and allowing God, who already knows all about us, to heal us and set us free.
I will tell you more about it when I finish the book. But right now, I'd like to present to you Janette-ikz's earth shattering God anointed poem.. that threads upon similar lines.
The Truth without Photoshop by Janette-ikz.
My prayer & hope awaits many more who would stand up in boldness to be transparent and boast about God's work, healing, grace and strength in our lives.
We don't just live a ritualistic religious life. The truth will set you free, and set others free too.
Let's be transparent, decrease and let God increase in our lives.
It's the last day of this grueling year of 2011. I'm seated at my desk, before what we call a 'laptop', with many thoughts. Should I attempt to write an entry in 45 minutes, so I can head off to explore Mt Ommaney Shopping Centre?
Yes, I guess I'll do that. So stay with me.
Dented Start
The year began like many years, with a BANG. A bang can imply what "Ris Low" depicts, "BOOMZ", or "SHINGZ". Maybe, a shingz in some way, maybe a boomz in another. Depends on how you see it.
For me, the year began with Wen Huey and her sisters chilling with me in my living room, watching the Taiwanese TV Drama "Stories of Time". It's funny how to this day, I still think of the drama every now and then. For me, that lodged deep in my heart something... for myself and a bond between Mum and Dad. :)
A week or two later, the Queensland floods hit us. I thank God for His protection upon me, and also for my many brothers and sisters, of whom some missed being in Toowoomba, and was protected from the massive disaster there. A few friends had their houses flooded, many lost their belongings.. a heart wrenching season for many, but at the same time, the community spirit in Queensland grew. We braved through it together.
In that same season, a life shaking experience happened for me. My faith was shaken due to a specific event. My tears ran dry and I didn't know how I could move on in life for awhile... but God held me during those times, and He was faithful in carrying me through... and also gave me hope. I miss my Double A sister. Can't wait till the day we meet again. "...we gon' make it!!"
Well, for me, the beginnings of 2011 painted a direction for me to achieve. And I called it a "Year of Faith". A journey of finding deeper faith in God, and knowing where I stood in this place.
The Year Progressing
The year moved really fast after the slow turmoil of January. I began this great journey of faith, as it seemed, God wasn't too slow to embark me on the process.
In terms of media and ministry, His faithfulness showed up. My brother gave me his DSLR so I could use it for filming. With God's guidance and inspiration, I completed my first film in my lifetime - Unmask. What came even better was my dream-come-true production of preparing a 'Movie Trailer'. That was a breakthrough in my ministry life.
The Unmask Short Film:
Later on in the year, I also attended a Filmaking & Directing course, and made a short film called "What Comes This Way".
Here's a poster I made for it. The film is still in post production... hoping to finish it soon!
Do you see my name in there? Hee hee.. Praise God for the wonderful experience.
Growth Through Uprooting
This year, my security in Christ grew massively. With many of my precious close sisters and brothers moving away from my life, it's like a spiritual uprooting of where I stood. Although physically I wasn't the one uprooted, it felt like my position in life was massively shaken. Who was I and where could I be? Who did I live for, and where was my hope and security? Those were the questions I found myself asking myself time and again. It felt like God was placing a new foundation for me, strengthening the core of my being, and I found myself at the cross many times surrendering it all to God again. At those points, I realised that God was my security, and He would never leave me nor forsake me.
And I thank God, that in the midst of all the shifting, sieving and shaking, I stood firm, and the friends I had, remained in touch. Though far away, deep in our hearts, there remains that connection, and blood of Christ that has bounded us together.
Character Development through Pruning
This year God dealt massively with my character. I had different events rock up in my life - pastoral, ministry, work or even friendship related. Situations that I was too incapable to handle, or peer pressure to do or say the wrong things at times. Or even at times the few encounters of being misunderstood and accused for something I did not do. All part and parcel of what we go through in life. I found myself in rage at times, startled by how angry I could get. I knew I was emotional, but in terms of anger, I never knew how dangerous I could become. Yet it all pointed to one thing, my imperfectness, and where my securities laid. Through these series of events, God indeed embarked me on some painful pruning!
Pruning ain't fun at all! But you know, as a gardener myself, I know that pruning causes more fruit production, and healthier plants. So as the Chief Gardener, God cut off pieces of me that rotted, and snipped of my impurities. He gave me constant health checks and starved some of my bad habits to death. He purified me through the cleansing from His Word, and convicted my actions and speech, and even helped me made right choices regarding the movies I watched and the music I listened to.
Through encouraging friends and honest brothers and sisters, I was constantly slammed with reflective modes and struggles in my action intentions. I thank God for helping me go through what I've done and said at times, and for His endless mercy and grace that fell abundantly over me. I grew in humility, and learnt how to say sorry and sometimes, do the right thing.
Am I perfect yet? No way... but with honesty and nakedness before the Lord, I am able to embrace my weaknesses and bring them before God, who would then help me be transformed by the cleansing power of His Spirit and Word.
To my friends out there who strive to grow in God, don't be afraid to be who you really are. We can't make it through by just doing what seems right, or doing good hypocritically, if we don't have a change in our heart. Allow ourselves to reveal before God who we really are, then He can change and transform us, that we may stand before Him pure and honest, yet covered by His Grace and Love... walking in Grace. :)
Learning to Live
It used to be all about ministry and legalistic routines. But one thing I learnt this year was to learn how to live this life God has given me. His love for me extends to the point where I am allowed to enjoy the beauty of this world He made!
This year, I traveled and chilled lots. One thing on my bucket list - to travel to Ayers Rock. I did it!! And even more so, I climbed the Kings Canyon and conquered the Valley of Winds at Kata Juta. Breath taking experiences... beauty of God and His Creations... My soul was refreshed and my eyes are opened.
I built great friendships through coffee, chilling, hiking.. and just doing things together with many ones.
Thank God for the friends He's put in my life... whao, too much for me to write in just one day. But... again, pictures tell a thousand words. Great places... great friendships. (not in chronological order - just too difficult with blogger.)
Turning 25th
Mum came and spent my 25th birthday with me in Australia. On the day, we went to Tasmania. I had an awesome time... she did too. Pictures, tell a thousand words. :)
I've come to embrace the fact that I'm a quarter of a century years old. To many, it seems like a quarter life crisis. Sometimes I feel like that too. But each time I'm reminded of how God picked me from the falling pit to where I am today.. Five years ago, I touched down in Brisbane, not knowing how much my life would change. Four years ago, God touched my heart and saved me.
Amazing Grace.. how sweet the sound, that saved a wretch like me. I once was lost, but now I'm found, was blind but now I see. My chains are gone, I've been set free. My God my Savior, has ransomed me. And like a flood, His mercy rains. Unending love, amazing Grace...
I had almost half a day chatting with a brother recently... laughing at who we were five years ago, and who we've become today. It's just amazing, the transformation power of God and His work. Our God is faithful, though we may not see it at one point in time or another, we know He never stopped working for the good of those who love Him. My life, just in the past 5 years, has already shouted how great God is. I don't know what the next few years would entail, but definitely something good.
And as I walk to the last day of 2011. It's amazing... what God told me four years ago. Tomorrow, I walk once again in close proximity with the Lord, I will wait for you.
It's been definitely a year of Faith for me. And I made it through. Job changes, life changes, ministry changes, friends changes.... many more things to believe for. But God saw me through.. I'm still in Brisbane, working.. and growing. What's next? I'm not sure, but definitely something Good.
So, it's almost 45 minutes. I'm about to end my entry.
I'll be counting down to the start of 2012 tonight... I can't wait.
For my family, I miss you.. May God bless you all greatly... Mum, Dad, Sis and Bro, all my aunties, my uncles... cousins... Grandma... extended relatives that I may have met once or twice in my life time... so many of you, may God bless you, and I pray for the day we can together all worship the Great Almighty God who loves us and blesses us endlessly.
A day of joy for the world, because Jesus was born to the world, a Saviour and King.
Had lots of party... and food, gave some presents, some good some poor... and dodgy.. *sweet potato*, haha... but well, in the midst of this all, God is the best Gift Giver of all.
---- ---- Merry Christmas ---- ----
"I will wait for you"
Here's another cool video. Talks about "I will wait for you". Speaks the heart of so many ladies nowadays..
Me included. Hee...
Check it out! For all y'all ladies who desire a true companionship.... and for y'all gentlemen... too. :)
Enjoy:
(I put the subtitles in there.. so it makes it easy for y'all to see!)
I chanced upon a nice video... two years apart, and they warmed my heart.
In 2008:
I love the part at 0:49.... so sweet.
In 2010:
Beautiful friendship... and it's so cute.
December finds its way speeding past my life. I woke up to a realisation that this year has gone by like the wind. A difficult gruel start to the year, I reflected upon re-visiting the entries of January and Feb. Whao...
A deepening of my faith..
Strengthening of my security in God..
Finding Jesus as the Lover of my Soul..
Holding on to love without building walls despite getting hurt...
That so reminds me of a testimony I heard today at Church. This girl went through a time of loving a friend who misunderstood her, and even hated her. Through that she persevered at loving her, but time and time again got hurt so badly. Eventually, she managed to keep drawing strength from God in loving her, and not allow walls to be build from the negativity she was receiving all around her.
Beautiful testimony...
That's the kind of love Jesus had... and even more so, extending love to one's enemies... not easy, but do-able, and achievable.
Well, I sit here looking at the time, past bed time again.... a chilly night, and a long weekend I've had... kind of sending a tickle down my nasal pharyngeal canal, I'm falling sick? Ah... please, not!
I've learnt to take care of myself more this year, learning to find both spiritual and physical rest in God this year, loving the body God has given me, and honouring this temple of the Holy Spirit.
So, sleep time it shall be. Probably two echinacea pills might help. Ah, and lots of water.
Kingdom Princess-meter:
A bittersweet heart felt uprising within hearing the update of once whom was close but now far away. Could things have been better? Probably not. An unruly and incommunicable attitude did no help to a situation. Not even so to speak about personal space... the case shall pass and fade away. For now, may the love of God heal hearts... broken and fearful hearts once again.
The next step would be critical. A stage and season right now that seems placid, dry or at times shaky. But the princess sits and rests upon the Kings heart, feasting on the Love that runs so freely.
As for matters of the heart... she decides to put them on the shelf. A decision that requires coupling with actions, which at times creates one of the most difficult tests. Not building walls, but instead guarding her heart within the confines of a secure pair of hands.. the hands of the King, who would choose the time and protector worthy to carry and own it.
No whys, no how... no when. God makes all things beautiful in His time.
As more and more artists begin to open their spiritual eyes to see the Grace of God in their lives... they begin to churn out music that so reflects God's work in their lives.
Songs written that comes in plain nakedness in acknowledgment of our own carnal nature and our weak ways... and songs that so sings the heart beat of many Christians, the attempt of reaching out to God.
God is so perfect... we aim and strive so much to be like Him... and be Holy, but we eventually realise it's His Grace that sees us through... and faith that we develop as we take small steps in obedience.
Ouch... to see individuals serve God and seek God in their own strength... that really hurts. But on the other hand, seeing individuals understanding that He loves us no matter what, and that we can come to Him anytime, and He would throw His arms around our dirty bodies... that's really touching.
So this song... a new rapper that Jin recommended on his blog... whao, amazing... touched my heart the moment I opened the youtube link.
May this song bless you... (it's not a heavy rap song... really nice and gentle to the ears.. enjoy.)
And so.. I wrote the lyrics out too!!
You are the Reason
Chorus
Teach us to love
Because we are searching for the son
You are the reason
Though our world has come undone
Don’t hide away
You are the reason we are here
We need You with us
And to guide us again without fear, you are the reason…
Verse 1
Everything I am I try to live my life for You
I want to glorify myself so now I’m all confused
Do I need your help, and do I need a saviour
I try to read Your word but I push if off for later
I never try to talk about You but I want Your help
I don’t pray about Your glory I just pray for wealth
I just pray for health, and I just pray for me
But I never really thought about it carefully
I tell myself I’m righteous, I’m on the only path
To make a solid living, but is it worth my past
I never thought that I could take control of things I do
But every time I did it always led me back to You
You feel so far away, I need You close to me
I can’t remember the last time that You spoke with me
I need You here right now, because I need a home
I need a reason for my life because I’m all alone
Verse 2
The reason You were beaten down was because of me
And every time I think about it You’re my company
But every time I say Your name they all make fun of me
Like do I really need Your Presence right in front of me?
I live my life conceded, no room for me and Jesus
Who cares if I succeeded, who cares if I repeated?
It’s not about my life, it’s not about my lines
It’s all about the Saviour, ‘cuz He was crucified
I never thought about it, but You’re my everything
And You will be there when I give my girl her wedding ring
And You will be there when I’m crying every tear I have
And You were with me when they came and took away my dad
You were with me when I moved into this basement
I forot about my past and the pain You just erased it
