A Pat On Her Back

A war zone has developed in her head. Many questions emerging as a result of what happened today. Of what meant to be a good intent soared into a series of nasty outcomes. In this age, she realises a new route is required to deliver rations for the training warrior. New challenges and obstacles. It's not new to the human mind that the world has kinda gone flop-sided. The former doing the latter and the latter doing the former. She jokes with the King regarding position descriptions. The swap of roles, but yet the inner desire of something else innately built still flashes. The problem where one yearns with an inner craving to be in the light surfaces... yet a reluctance still stands. A true friend and honest companion is no longer popular. Instead, one who showers kisses seems to win favour over a true friend who inflicts wounds. Yet she understands an increasing need to contextualise with pleasant words like a honeycomb, to bring healing to the bones and sweetness to the soul.

A work in progress for all it seems. All her good intent this evening seem to come plummeting down upon her, like a worker lifting the boulder for the pedestrians to pass safely. Yet instead of personally returning to safety, the boulder fell upon her. Imagine lifting the boulder meant you saved one dying person, yet injure five other, and no one died... would you point the pistol at the worker for the one pedestrian saved, and five injured and acclaim the mistake hers? Yes, the public would say she could have done better, but at that moment in time, that was the best she could do.

It's tempting to just walk away from everything and choose to not care anymore. But she can't. Tomorrow is going to be a better day with the Lord. She will learn to rejoice, and be strong, because there is a greater purpose. The circle seems to get smaller each day. It might be another lesson of Gethsemane to learn. Level up?

Well, this outlet receives her ranting. As for her emotions now, and how things are going? She learns to be thankful to what God has done in her life.

So the words from brother David, "I'm okay, by the Grace of God", resounds in her mind.

Yes, by the Grace of God, I'm able to pick up and carry on labouring for His harvest.

M Writings... + 2 great MTVs

Seemingly, an environment meant for the thermophilic has eased its way into different major cities of Australia... Despite the surroundings of warmth, an empty coldness runs in her heart. Launching the new calender with a series of history that can never be erased, she finds her emotional storehouse drained. Liquid prayers have been collected in the King's jar. A jar for the catalyst once mentioned.

She picks up the book from His shelf and re-read the pages. The pages highlighted the hopes and desires, thoughts and memories that filled the pages so quickly. So much have been written in such a short time. Yet, as the pages hit the new year, a rock bottom storyline has been enacted. The appearance of once again, the same trigger that previously ignited an oxidation potential. Or maybe it never left. Whether or not it was meant to be, she has decided for now to retreat from the catalyst.

She once conveyed the important information to the catalyst, not to erupt the dangerous volcano. The volcano hasn't erupted, yet a lot of dangerous molecular interactions have been occurring within... and in that, causing damage to its host. She doesn't understand the boundary breaking intentions of the invading catalyst. Well, maybe now she does. It might just have been how the catalyst was created, exhibiting both its strengths and weaknesses.
 
She gathers increasing insulating material and begins the route of protection, with hopeful intent that recovery might take place and sedate the volcano. The process of insulation has re-calibrated her abilities for encountering catalyst interactions - still being extra aware and concerned of it's well-being, yet not delving deeper than processes may require. Difficult, but has to be done.. at least for now.

Questions surround the princess as her mind replays the journey in the pages. She places the book back onto the shelves, returning to a conversation with the King. What will the future pages write? What will the insulation bring about? More fluid flows from the lenses of her being... the trees might suffer a little more these few nights and early mornings, but maybe they would feel good to offer that slight comfort to her needs.

Well... enough of melancholic writings for now.

Here's a sequel of two songs, with a same story. I love them.... the MTV of both are one of the bests stories I've seen. Enjoy..

Part one... watch till the end, that's the most amazing story..


And what happens after that... (watch only after the first video)

Starting the Engine

Happy New Year.... yes, a bit over due.

It's been a little tough getting the engine started this year. I feel like I'm trying to push into second gear but there's a bit of rust lost in relaxation... and thoughts. Nevertheless, it's going to be a good year ahead. Maybe the first month is going to drag a little bit, counting each second tough to handle.

Why?

Well.. The princess thought she could handle it better than she really can. She has made herself vulnerable once again... Sad face. Maybe she could channel all her energies elsewhere more productive, rather than fuel the melancholic system more than it deserves.

今晚她忍不住掉下眼泪了...

To redirect some light in this oncoming fog, the King draws her towards His voice.

"...I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus."

- Philippians 3:13-14 (NIV)

And the resounding encouragement once again reminded from the prophetic presbytery last May...

"And you know, work was always meant to be a pleasure. Many people never realise that work is pleasure. And you love doing the hard stuff. You love achieving and not because you have a pressure to succeed, or pressure to perform, but because you love doing the difficult stuff. You just get a joy over winning. You have that real spirit of an over comer. The words, ‘You are more than a conqueror really means something to you.” But you say, “I am a conqueror, give me something to conquer. Give me someone to beat. Give me someone that no one else is game.”
 

"There’s been those times when you’ve been frustrated, and that frustration has come out. And then you started beating up yourself – “Can’t have that attitude, can’t speak that way, can’t think that way!” But this courage, and this strength and this fighter within you is not just yourself. It’s not a flesh thing. The Spirit of the Lord is truly upon you and He’s on you for victory."

"Because of what you sense in the realm of the Spirit, that’s transmitted into your being, and you are contagious. You wanna make sure that others get it, so that you know, it’s what you’re hearing from God, this is the ‘now’ word. It’s not yesterday’s word, it’s not tomorrow’s word. It is the now word. This is what we are to be doing NOW, this is what God is saying NOW, this is where we put our energies NOW. And out of that comes spiritual activity."

"You’re not one that sit to let the days grow between your toes. You wanna make sure you are up and doing what needs to be done. Now some people misunderstand that and they think that she’s just hard driving. And the Lord says that this is how He has made you for a purpose because He wants you to be able to be infectious, so that you share this with others, and that you actually provoke them into love and good works. Spiritually alert. Spiritually alive. And spiritually active."

"I’ve called you to be one that will hear my voice and that would understand the purpose and would initiate the purpose. Don’t hold back says the Lord, even as I speak to your heart , launch forth and you shall see good success, says the Lord. 

Now, I cause there to be even a creativity in working out my purposes, says your God. You shall be one that shall understand what it is needed to happen at that time and you will encourage others to flow along with it, says the Lord. And you shall have good success. 

Sister, I just see that God’s calling you to be an initiator. He’s calling you to hear from heaven and begin to step out in faith on that. And there’ll be others that you’ll need to encourage to be a part of that."

I can't begin to title the year yet... but maybe, the nice title to 2013 will come soon. Till then.

For now... here's a song that comforts and refreshes.