Tested & Stretched

A time of testing and being stretched.

I almost blew it a while ago.

Living for God and not the world... and not seeking acceptance from people is a difficult task. But God is determined to deal with that in my life.

I know everyone's tired, so am I. But I'll keep running. It's hard... but I know why I'm doing it. And God is making this even purer.

Can't fall back now. Pray more for fuel. Even if I have to crawl, I will..

If my friends don't understand, it hurts... but I will still choose to obey the Lord.

He knows where I'm heading, and has what I need that I don't know of.

Pray for me..

Unmask Preview

It's been crazy of late... but today I'm sharing in the joy with my Father God. This partnership and productions that blows my own mind....

I'm happy to present the preview of my FIRST short film production - Unmask Trailer.



Enjoy..
Looks like it's gone in 1:45 min... but that took a long time... but God showed up and made a miracle happen.

I wish for a MacBook Pro, or an Alienware... but God said He'll use the little that I have, and He'll take me through it... and He did!

I thank God for His providence... all the props, venue, sunshine, and the camera.. and the people and timing of the filming... the software... they were 100% provided...
God's amazing... as for the whole short film... Come to Unmask!

I'm just a simple 9-5 scientist, 5 days a week.. but God's multiplied my time and talents, for His kingdom.

It's a new season in my life.... with many changes... and many unknowns coming up...
It's also a season where I'm constantly drawn to praying more, falling back into God's embrace, because I can't do things for myself nor with my own strength anymore.

I know, to the world this sounds weak.. but I'm not living a life for the world...
The time is drawing closer, and believe it or not, Jesus is coming back real soon.

I'm sick of arguements and debates.... it's time to show love, grace and share about Jesus... whether or not people run with you, or appreciate, it doesn't matter anymore. Let us unite, and strive for the same purpose and goal. Stop arguing or allowing people to draw you into arguements. Love irregardless.

"By this all men will know that you are my disciples, if you love one another."

- John 13:35 (NIV)

It's not about us, not about me. It's all about God!

Run - with hearts aflame!

Faith Affirming God

Alignment with the Holy Spirit

Remember how I was speaking about God leading me to another chapter in my life - A Year of Faith. It's amazing cuz yesterday, Ps Wenan was preaching at Church, and he shared the vision he had for the church this year! Radical multiplication - Multiplying Faith in our Lives.

Look! It's almost the same as what God has placed in my heart! That's the Holy Spirit at work!!!

The year has begun with many uncertanties and promises. It wasn't a blink of an eye that made it almost the end of February. Somehow, to many ones, claims have been made that the year is already dashing across. But for me, it felt like every moment lived.

It's been long. Especially January. I dont deny that, indeed, the year has began to speed up, and I am excited to know what's coming.

My Reflections - Might Sound Greek To You

Lately, I have been doing a lot of self reflection with regard to certain things. I know there are some fears within I have to address. I'm trying to figure out certain things, and for some reason, I know God's placing me in situations that make me address these issues.

Have I really let my past go fully? I might have, but have I allowed the fears of history mould my character?
I know a lot of bombs have been flying my way. Tell you the truth, I wish I could answer y'all.

Looking to who I was at the beginning of last year, I might have changed for the better. But I guess God's not done with me. It's a lesson of vulnerability. I'm taking each step, by faith, not knowing how I will react to upcoming situations, but trusting God will give me the wisdom and the guidance to be who I really am - the Shannon God created - wise river filled with the Grace of God.

Did you know that is actually what Shannon means? You can doubt, but I'm claiming that blessing in Jesus Name!

I didn't know... but my new life, God's intended for something I didn't even know...

Like I said in my previous entry... In due time, I'll have a story to tell.
But the story doesn't just come like that.
I have to live and survive to tell the story.
And God will keep me going...
Sometimes, I feel like I'm struggling..
I'm battling..
Pray for me.
It's not easy, when I feel like I'm walking alone.. but truth is I'm not.
There's God.
And there are my friends, you guys.
And... though some of my dearest have left, I know they're keeping me in prayers..
Day and night I think of them...
How am I to let go?
I don't know...

God's funny... He gives me such great friends. But then again, to take them all over the world, to places where I can't be right now...

But one thing I know... all these are for a great purpose to come. Because when the purpose comes to fulfilment, I'll be seeing them so much more again, and right now, I'm not talking about heaven. Heaven is the eternity, but before that... God has a great purpose.

Ok.. enough of Greek that seems to confuse most..

Now my life in general?

As for my life now (not that what I wrote above isn't), I've been embarking on my first mini film for Church... pray for me... filming is complete, now it's the editing that's giving me a headache.
God provided me a great new tool as well...! My brother gave me a marvelous SLR camera, that can film awesome movies..
Now, what do you say, when God constantly smacks encouragement in your face?

And beyond that... my God who provides endlessly... provided 99% of the props needed in the film, which didn't cost me a single cent.

God's amazing.... and amazing! Actually, I feel like I'm kinda addicted to these faith journeys..

One thing I realise... each time I feel depressed, discouraged or down, I come to this blog, and am reminded of the endless goodness of God in my life... this blog, to feed His sheep... has in return, fed me the most. :)

Goodnight. :)

I Feel Really Blessed!

This year's been starting different... moving different... and it's gonna be different.

Kind of know but not know what's coming... trying not to look just at the present but beyond. Trying not to look through my eyes, but eyes of faith.

In due time I'll have a story to tell... but right now it's all in pieces, but each time I look 'up', He's always there to hold me on, I know, there's something great in this... I'm just waiting and praying.

Cuz my life is different I'm learning how to live in the difference. Trying not to let difference change me but to be the difference. I seem surrounded by darkness at times, but the light within still shines bright, He's leading my way, I see it so clearly.. To the spectator there seems no direction, but really, I'm very joyful right now... though things may not be flowing straight, but I feel very blessed and things are going ahead.

What's coming? God knows. :) And because I know He knows what He's doing... I can keep holding on to His Promises...!

What can I do when God endlessly smacks encouragement right in my face? What did I do?
Really... I love it and can't help but smile and laugh at it... God's fun, amazing and genuinely sincere... I mean like, there's really no other who does this.

"Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.

Blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted.

Blessed are the meek, for they will inherit the earth.

Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they will be filled.

Blessed are the merciful, for they will be shown mercy.

Blessed are the pure in heart, for they will see God.

Blessed are the peacemakers, for they will be called sons of God.

Blessed are those who are persecuted because of righteousness, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.

Blessed are you when people insult you, persecute you and falsely say all kinds of evil against you because of me.

Rejoice and be glad, because great is your reward in heaven, for in the same way they persecuted the prophets who were before you."

- Matthew 5:3-12 (NIV)

 
Today I was working and for some reason I kept wanting to listen to The Ambassador's song... so I did a quick youtube search... and found this awesome song. His lyrics are always so deep... not just a simple rap song..
 
For those who love it.. or wanna taste a bit of rap... enjoy! :)
 
Gimme Dat - The Ambassador
 

 
It takes someone with a close and growing relationship with God to write such lyrics... deep! Enjoy..
 

Gimme Dat Lyrics

 

Verse 1
Gimme dat bible

Gimme dat mic

I'll drop Jesus anyway so he can make a disciple

Can't surpass Christ there's no takin' his title

A passion for Christ I'll have you prayin' for revival

Gimma my city, yeah

Gimme dat-- less fish

Gospel of peace, yeah

You can give me dat-- fresh kicks

Gimme dat

Vest with your blessin' Lord I'm desperate

You gave me your life

So I look forward to my exit

I used to be a punk-kid

Used to wanna run, with

Dudes dat wanna hunt that

Turned our ones into hundreds

Used to run the blunt to be blunt

I wanted trees just to alter my mind

Now I find I'm wantin' Jesus

Used to run and roll mad deep with the street clique

Corner holdin' heat on the low like a secret

God's spirit penetrated my soul on a sneak tip

Took control now I'm in his floor like a leaflet

Chorus
Gimme dat fire

Gimme dat flame

Gimme dat fresh wind

Gimme dat rain

Gimme dat freedom

You can have the chains

Gimme dat God who can gimme all things

Verse 2

I know you got riches

I know you got ice

Your life is a big party

You're partyin' all night

You don't mind not knowin' Christ

In your mind dat's alright

You might not get this now

But you're kind of a Saul type

You keep with the trends

Cool's your middle name

On your pants you got a chain

The juice like Lil' Wayne

You're tattooed in a Benz

Maybe you're inarranged

Ladies, you drivin' crazy

Nothin's crazier than your frame!

(This is a shame!)
It's the age and I'm game

To be an agent of change

And at age, it's like a page in a flame

Just smoke, just mirrors, just vapor is plain

You see, a Holy God is not one of your favorite things

I was just like you,

But God moved on a fellow

Gave me good news

Dat I could use on the ghetto

Maybe it's you who wants a

U-turn to settle

You dead or you do??

I'll tell you it's been settled

Verse 3

So you got platinum?

We got our Lord

If we want, we could ask him

But he's our reward

Gotta be perfect

It can't be three out of four

If you're sick of fallin' short

Then he got a cure

Gimme dat cure, dat door, dat hero

Gimme dat grace dat never chased the dinero

How much glory should you give your boy? Zero

That would cause beef with the Lamb like a Gyro

Gimme dat day reaches you over shinin'

Truth over rhymin'

Virtue over diamonds

Gimme some change

Sometimes I do need the dough

Gimme some pain

Somethin' -- I do need to grow

Gimme what I won't ask for

Don't gimme what I seek

When I creep, I'm a sheep

Gimme your pasture

Gimme life

Just like you intended

It's like to see you raise the day you ascended

Vulnerability - I'm Appreciating This.

This year is really taking a toll on me before the month of Janurary even touched an end.

But I realised, I have never made as vulnerable as this... I guess the last time I was this vulnerable, was when I was a child... or even, a baby. Of course, as it seems this moment, I am not as vulnerable as a kid.

Looking back, though vulnerable as a kid, I knew my parent's care for me. I had to rely on my parents. I had to trust what they knew what they were doing. I had no control over my life, and what I was going to eat, wear or do.... at least not before I was clearly aware of my surroundings.

And right now, I feel like God's taking me back to that place. That place where I let go of everything, and find Him fully, not knowing of what the future holds, but knowing that there's something good in store. As I can see right now, I know, there's a race that I'm running, a destination I am headed, but how I'm gonna get there, it's still a mystery indeed.

That's what's amazing.

I guess it's quite hard to tell someone to just let go as such. But God is a teacher, guider and comforter, and through Him and His sovereign will, I have found it easy to let go. These days I look back to who I was three years ago, and who I am now... I really find it amazing.

"They say friends are friends forever, if the Lord's the lord of them."

Yes... heaps of my friends and dear ones have left my side over the period of 2 months.... I miss them but I know we're going to meet again, not by my strength, but that God will make it happen. All I know right now is that God had made me vulnerable, and I choose to maintain this heart of vulnerabilty, that I may have the softest heart He can mould... and do unimaginable things...

I find my faith growing into a radical one... already at times I can't fathom it myself, but if I've decide to start this relationship with God, I might as well be real about it.

Whao....

So, Chinese New Year is hitting in a few days. Before that, please pray for the world... and for Queensland. Against the cyclone that's about to hit us... and against the pain and evil that's happening around the world.... pray that many ones will begin to turn to God, cuz clearly He is speaking something to the world now. It's already 2011, let us be urgent. :)

....and there will be the sifting of the hot, cold and lukewarm..

I'm blogging from home, Singapore. Visited the dentist yesterday, did my CNY shopping... and tomorrow, hair cut!
Guess it's all well spent and in good usage.. God's really opening these doors, and every moment of my life isn't wasted.

Anyway, some pictures of what's been going on.... I thought I'd post up, and let it tell its own story.

Hiking at Lamington Nationak Park on Australia Day Holiday - Caves Circuit

Kuziwa and I... I'm so going to miss you... Take care, my homegirl :)

SetYen, Fenny, Kimie, and myself.. taking a rest near the Cave!

Half the gang, before setting out. But see, I'm already clinging on to Kuzi kuzi...

"Don't leave me...!"

Project Passion... farewell for Evelyn. Ah... Looking at this picture... reminds us of the good times, yet the amazing hand of God, cuz right now, we've all moved on but striving hard for God! Believing that we're still going to do great things through Project Passion!

Farewell... Evelyn Meh meh... but now.. Kuzi left me too!

Anyway, the year ahead holds greater things! (not that the things before weren't great..)
But I'm holding on, and letting go... haha... so God can take control.

So... now they're all over the world... clearly, God's hands are moving!

Ok, it's a choppy entry... but I'm logging off now! Hahaha... Happy Chinese New Year friends!