Resounding Encouragements

Home studio revamping - 100% completed!
I am currently blogging from my new desktop. Very happy lady right now.
Time to get serious with multimedia productions.
Thanking God for all His providence. I feel like I'm being stretched this season.

Words from the prophetic presbytery resounds in my mind. Very encouraged.

Though I feel like writing more, words can't exactly describe the thoughts running through my mind this moment.

I've been talking to God. About things.
He's helping me to see some things.
I'm asking Him how to work some things...
He's showing me what He has already done.
I'm asking more about what He is going to do.

We're talking. And I remember the many years ago, our prayers yesterday makes us who we are today. What we see today, is a result of our yesterdays.

Life comes its way, but we embrace situations and not let circumstances master us. I got a God who is the King of all Kings. He is the Alpha and the Omega. He will turn this dry and desert land into a land flowing with milk and honey.

As for me right now, I know what's in the Promise Land. Ain't gonna settle for less.


For this season, these words constantly resounds in my mind.... 

".....the words, 'You are more than a conqueror really means something to you.'...."

"There's been those times when you've been frustrated, and that frustration has come out. And then you started beating up yourself - 'can't have that attitude, can't speak that way, can't think that way!' But this courage, and strength and this fighter within you is not just yourself. It's not a flesh thing. The Spirit of the Lord is truly upon you and He's on you for victory...."

"....You want to make sure that others get it, so that you know, it's what you're hearing from God, this is the 'now' word. It's not yesterday's word, it's not tomorrow's word. It is the now word. This is what we are to be doing NOW, this is what God is saying NOW, this is where we put our energies NOW. And out of that come spiritual activity......"

Staying plugged in to the vine.

Trying to go deeper... 

Deeper, leaving the surface.

"....And then lastly, God says you are special. Don’t give up on who you are. Make sure you reproduce yourself and others spiritually. And set them on fire for the sake of the Kingdom...."

"....I’ve called you to be one that will hear my voice and that would understand the purpose and would initiate the purpose. Don’t hold back says the Lord, even as I speak to your heart , launch forth and you shall see good success, says the Lord...."

Knots.

Lord I need your strength.

Happy Winter 2012!

Once again, it's time to embrace what the cool breeze carries. The time of the year I look forward to all the time. The privilege to snug beneath the warm duvet, a sleeping bag, a thick ski jacket... and hide away under the comfort of a jumper, hoodie or jacket... put on the boots and scarfs... fleece, and all else you can name for the enjoying the comfort of winter.

I'm up awake at one AM right now, on a nice rainy evening morning. Might be that cuppa "tingle my toes" from Pie Face doing its little bit of tingling... well, I'm happy, cuz I get to blog, which I haven't really done so in a long while.

What's been up, yo? Shannon's been down under the hood, doing some cooking with food, but it's not the usual look, probe more you might get the spoof! Um.. iight, let's skip on the rhymes tonight.

The year has almost sliced itself into halves! What have I been doing? Revamping my room and upgrading the tools for my media work, and since my laptop has decided to once again proof itself close to dead... I made the investment. Guess it's really a step of faith. I'm taking one step at a time, each step by faith. I'm praying God will calm and bring peace to those around me, and those who care for me and my future... because I know God has a good plan for me... and them. So, as I take these steps of faith at times, no doubt it might trouble and worry my loved ones, but I'm praying, God grow our faith. :)

And so, I should really sleep now. I had a great day, starting off at work rushing through the necessities before making my way to Mater Hospital for the MMRI Symposium... good lunch, nice freebies at the booths, and caught up with some other researchers I haven't met in a while. And... it's funny, cuz halfway through I was actually missing Teija, wishing she was there! :) Yes, Teija was my boss back at my old job. :)

Alright. Head to bed... after I present some photos, for myself and for your pleasure. (wanted to upload more, but there's a prob with blogger.. so i'mma sleep and try again next time. Night!)

Making dumplings with Fenny, Hideko, Set Yen and Xiao Li :)

Driving to Stanthorpe

The cutest Jerusalem donkeys I've ever met in my life. We connected instantly... and I miss these babies. 

Guess what? These donkeys have a cross on their backs!! :)

Mundane May?

Has May been so mundane that I've kept silent for awhile?
It's almost over, I can't believe I not written a single entry.

Today I sat at work, and thought through this pretty well. I do need to keep writing, not to achieve or hit a certain mark, but because it is my organiser. Writing helps me organise my thoughts, and re-align my mind better. You could call that 'defragmenting' I guess.

The month started with a season of praying... then fasting, and hearing from God. The prophets came and blessed our church, and I was personally blessed too. I had my first prophetic presbytery, and it's very affirming what God has been doing, and a faith boosting season where I knew and was re-affirmed with the purposes God had laid in my heart all these years. I might write more about it next time, not today.

There's been some rearrangement in my life lately. I've also took a step of faith to invest in my custom made desktop, which is currently being installed in my house. I'm not done with it yet. I guess there will be a couple more phone calls and visits to Umart before it's all fixed up and functioning. Following that, the installation of softwares, antivirus?, and my new Adobe CS6 Production Premium software, wee! And... maybe Diablo 3?

We'll see how that goes.

Holidays...? Yes, a short weekend to Stanthorpe. Relaxing, cool, and nice.

Photos, next time.

There's more that's been happening...But.

I'll have to run now, finish up some things, and then sleep.

Goodnight world.

A New Role

Right, this moment is going to past and the last day of April is going to make itself history. The month, or year, to be exact, has traveled so quickly and in less than 3 hours, May is going to force its way before me.

It's a nice cloudy Monday we had. No rain. No muck ups. A good day... It seemed. The weekend passed pretty quickly. I spent most of it cake baking, and sleeping. Couple of social gatherings I found myself attending, joyful but lethargic, trying to battle the cold bug.

Right now? Still battling the bug. But I believe victory is headed my way, especially after that two cups of Berocca over two days. Emotionally, much better. My emotions definitely contributed to two-tenths of my sickness. Why? I'll explain soon.

As observed from the past two undecipherable entries, I was going through a pretty emotion-filled rough time. I wrestle a lot with my thoughts and desires, trying to link and unlink what my mind thinks or my heart feels. Especially when left doesn't really seem left, or right doesn't really seem right. Or when one plus one does not really equal two. And when oil does not really separate from water. I should stop before it becomes undecipherable again.

"Hope deferred makes the heart sick, but a longing fulfilled is a tree of life."

- Prov 13:12 (NIV)

Indeed, hope deferred makes the heart sick. Then how does the second part of this verse fit its way in? A longing fulfilled is a tree of life. This is probably why the Bible mentions for us to 'guard our hearts'.

"Above all else, guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life."

- Prov 4:23 (NIV)

Wise words. To guard our hearts, and put our longing and hope in what gives us life. That's only Jesus. Only.. Jesus.

"...but whoever drinks the water I give him will never thirst. Indeed, the water I give him will become in him a spring of water welling up to eternal life." - John 4:14 (NIV)

There are days where the theatre of my mind replays itself the same scenarios over and over again. But there's never a real ending. There are many possibilities, but no outcome. The tightening of my heart at the replays does reveal where my treasure lies at times, and I find myself knocking on the doors of heaven, crying out for the Lord's strength, just so Jesus can heal and release me. "Jesus... Jesus... God help me please. Argh... Jesus... Jesus..."

Nothing on earth lasts forever, so my treasure should be found in Him who gives abundantly, according to what is best for us. And daily, I lift up my burdens to God so I carry them no more. It's hard hey, especially when you know life does not stop the moment you do that, and that new burdens tag along the way.

I'm still in the journey of finding a daily surrender and pledging of my security in Christ alone.

This morning I woke up, and in my usual routine with God, I gained myself a new revelation. It's daunting to realise that walking out of my bedroom each day does not seem so simple anymore. Who I am out there is the real test. Not to belittle quiet time - time with God in our private rooms itself is the engine room behind the fueling of our faith. But when I walk out of my room, the rubber hits the road, and my promises before God are put to the test... and the instructions I discovered from His Word becomes a test of my convictions.

Definitely, not as simple as it seems.

And at times, it feels like the fuel and living water that I get in the day just hits the bottom of the tank when I come home. Too much revolutions per minute... RPM!!! But at days when I just chill and let the Lord go ahead of me... it seems that I still have a lot of fuel left by the end of the day.

Sometimes it would be tempting to just a live a simple Christian lifestyle. Go to church on Sunday, faithfully attend life group, pray hard at prayer meetings... and just add on or take away responsibilities as and when I feel like it. But time and again over the past two years, I recall the umpteenth time I considered that, but find myself unable to do it, because of the convictions, passion and purposes that God has laid in my heart. So, as an imperfect individual, I still give it my best shot to obey God. Not unwillingly, but honestly, knowing my weaknesses but living in His grace. I'm always able to find a way. Not pretentiously, but transparent and being myself... living out a lifestyle for God, the way I was created.

One thing I really thank God for along the way in my walk with Him over the past four and a half years - the people who boldly spoke into my life. People who were not afraid to break me, or risk destroying friendships because they cared enough to tell me about my weaknesses. And the many times God embraced me in the times when I felt like no one understood, He held my broken heart and helped me to absorbed the hearts and intentions of those who dared to speak.

I'm about to sign off and stop writing, as much as I'd like to continue before April becomes history.

Two weeks has passed since I agreed to step up to a new role in my walk with God. A new role which I had issues embracing initially, because of what I thought I must do or who I had to be like.
But one thing the Lord reminded me, was that of being even more of a servant. And in some other ways, a daughter who steps up to embrace more responsibilities for her Father's business. It is the daily commitment to embrace responsibility, when I like or dislike it. But at the same time, as a daughter, to be a part of exciting things God our Father is doing.

Alright, bye bye April. It has been great. I made new friends, and grew deeper friendships.
God expanded my tents..
And though I'm at crossroads, I'm going to keep fighting the fight.

Out-of-the-box

Following on from my previous two "melancholic inspired" entries, I thought I either sequel it with another, or colour my page with a bit more light hearten-ness - again, if there's such a word. Not really. Let's see how the entry progresses.

So a relaxing out-of-the-box day I found myself with a couple of friends driving down the country, headed for the East. Yep, Battleship at Victoria Point. A nice lunch at "Kiss My Fish", an overcrowded movie theatre, a relaxing chillax stroll along the Victoria Point jetty, dinner and desserts at Sunnybank for toppings.

At Victoria Point Jetty - Photo credits to Chee

Beautiful clouds at the jetty - Photo credits to Chee

I had fun.

The Princess Metre decides to find it's way back on this draw board. For some words cannot be expressed simply in mere layman structures, for hope that no evidence is left in the expedition for emotional dump tipping. There's always the irony of embracing oneself in a interesting situation. The song she plays on her guitar once every now and then recaps the strategies of pride battling in contrast to the simple softness of human character. The captivating thought of acquiring a gift prematurely constantly sets the cardiovascular system into a parasympathetic nerve response. Yet the power of one's mind can tame the irrational manifest of these synaptic responses. Yes - the power that comes from high above to transform and purify hearts, through the renewal of the mind.

Anyway, I should stop and head to bed. And probably reduce my input of highly undecipherable writing. But it's pretty fun, word play and writing creatively.

Once again.
Signing off... good night world.