Reflections

How easy it is to be unaware of the creepy crawlies that enter our hearts! It lurks at our doorsteps, gotta be aware. Be not afraid to discover sin in our hearts, rather, be afraid of being oblivious and sinning without knowing.
Identifying our sinful nature allows us to yield to God's Grace and redemption in our lives, and in humility righting the wrongs by obeying His ways and His voice in our lives.

It is like a daily surrender to yield our hearts to God, being alert cuz the enemy prowls around waiting to devour us.

Be self-controlled and alert. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour.
- 1 Peter 5:8 (NIV)

I've been bitten a couple of times by this roaring lion. But it never takes too long to snap to senses and dash straight in the other direction once realising it, and obeying God's voice.

I can always follow the blame game that Eve did back in the Garden of Eden... "Oh, it's someone else fault... that's why I did this, or that."

We all have a responsibility for our actions...! Can't blame no one else.

So... one more lesson learned to today... What did I learn? To be sensitive to God. To not be easily influenced by the ways of the world and the bitterness around me. To be secure in God. And to be humble to right the wrongs, and commit situations to God.

Alright... now that I feel much better 'penning' this down..

I just want to share a cake I made 2 days ago for Wenhuey's bday. I prayed before I started, because I never made this before... and it's a miracle cuz God showed up, and in the last minute I found out the recipe to do this!!

Winnie the Pooh Oreo Cheese Cake

Yum...

Night.

Vibrant Church Conference Promo Video

My new piece of work.. done within a very short time.. heaps of time constraints.

God still enabled me to pull through it. Lots of miracle moments, and coordinate lock-ins.

Many watched and asked, "Did you make it Shannon? We can see your style in it."



Now thinking... noticing my 'style', is it good or bad? Hm... does it mean, it's time to upgrade and learn new skills.. yes I guess so.

But then again, Atieno once told me, make something your style and it will be recognised straight away - in a good way.

Whatever the case, God be above all these...

Direction and many other things... I'm praying for......
I really miss home.

Turning a Quarter of a Century

This was my last two weeks. Mama came and celebrated my 25th birthday with me. We had lots of fun, in Brisbane and Hobart.

I was homesick before she came. Am so refreshed! Missing her already, but I'm still happy for all the good time spent!

Now... I'm back to 'work' again...!

Next time home, Chinese New Year!
Can't wait.

Where from and where to?

Lately there are so many thoughts in my mind. I feel like time and time again I'm back on the same spot, looking at what I lost, or being so sensitive cuz my security was placed upon humans again. Every time things become better, I feel happy for awhile. But the slightest disappointment from man, can cause me to relive every moment of hurt once again.

I live my life not conceited. I live my life for Jesus. Yet the world loves to find accusations against my intentions. I find myself at a point where I don't seek to explain anymore about the way I do things, or the reason why things happen. I love because I want to. I hurt, because I'm affected. My heart breaks, seeing the carnality of my surroundings and myself taken to a glorious state, instead of the Light of the Lord shining above all.

They say, a person who's heart is sick, tends to soon fall into sickness. Indeed, I've succumb to unknown forces of pressure that has affected me so much, mentally, emotionally, spiritually and even physically. I'm once again down with the flu bug. :( But this time, I have to press on and battle it, because I had heaps of work to do...

Hope deferred makes the heart sick, but a longing fulfilled is a tree of life. - Proverbs 13:12

I'm praying for hope to arise more within me. Maybe I've lost hope somehow down the road through a turn of events. I have lost sight of the Giver of Hope... the faithfulness of my Giver of Hope. Though I've been broken, and wrestling, God's been so faithful and in His still small voice calls out to me, "I won't let go of you."

I love Him. I love God.

Here's my inspired song... written in this very moment.

Where did these feelings come about
Feels like I'm running the circles route
Head's up in the clouds, inside tryna' doubt
Need navigation and peace to fill me throughout
Where have I come from and where am I heading
These thoughts battle within and it's bothering
me, to find a place where I can feel secure
Knowing deep down inside that my heart needs a cure
for the hurts that's scarred the precious heart of mine
each minute I look away feels like I'm losing time
it's either I keep searching or hitting these road blocks
or seek the Healer Giver who turn the hands of clocks

I know You're calling me to draw closer to you
These events in my life ain't just a coincidence for fools
You want my heart softened so you can use me as a tool
but most of all to have me close to you so I'll be full
no longer seeking left or right or strive to start a fight
with my inner soul desires battling against the light
if I let go and let You drive the wheel of my life
I know I'll be safe, trust you and let go of the strife
to know I'm loved even when I fail to do my best
cuz Your Grace sustains me when I up against the tests
especially when trials and hardships add the load upon my neck
I will lay them down and relieve the load cuz You've got my back

You Are The Reason

As more and more artists begin to open their spiritual eyes to see the Grace of God in their lives... they begin to churn out music that so reflects God's work in their lives.

Songs written that comes in plain nakedness in acknowledgment of our own carnal nature and our weak ways... and songs that so sings the heart beat of many Christians, the attempt of reaching out to God.

God is so perfect... we aim and strive so much to be like Him... and be Holy, but we eventually realise it's His Grace that sees us through... and faith that we develop as we take small steps in obedience.
Ouch... to see individuals serve God and seek God in their own strength... that really hurts. But on the other hand, seeing individuals understanding that He loves us no matter what, and that we can come to Him anytime, and He would throw His arms around our dirty bodies... that's really touching.

So this song... a new rapper that Jin recommended on his blog... whao, amazing... touched my heart the moment I opened the youtube link.

May this song bless you... (it's not a heavy rap song... really nice and gentle to the ears.. enjoy.)



And so.. I wrote the lyrics out too!!

You are the Reason

Chorus

Teach us to love

Because we are searching for the son

You are the reason

Though our world has come undone

Don’t hide away

You are the reason we are here

We need You with us

And to guide us again without  fear, you are the reason…

Verse 1

Everything I am I try to live my life for You

I want to glorify myself so now I’m all confused

Do I need your help, and do I need a saviour

I try to read Your word but I push if off for later

I never try to talk about You but I want Your help

I don’t pray about Your glory I just pray for wealth

I just pray for health, and I just pray for me

But I never really thought about it carefully

I tell myself I’m righteous, I’m on the only path

To make a solid living, but is it worth my past

I never thought that I could take control of things I do

But every time I did it always led me back to You

You feel so far away, I need You close to me

I can’t remember the last time that You spoke with me

I need You here right now, because I need a home

I need a reason for my life because I’m all alone

Verse 2

The reason You were beaten down was because of me

And every time I think about it You’re my company

But every time I say Your name they all make fun of me

Like do I really need Your Presence right in front of me?

I live my life conceded, no room for me and Jesus

Who cares if I succeeded, who cares if I repeated?

It’s not about my life, it’s not about my lines

It’s all about the Saviour, ‘cuz He was crucified

I never thought about it, but You’re my everything

And You will be there when I give my girl her wedding ring

And You will be there when I’m crying every tear I have

And You were with me when they came and took away my dad

You were with me when I moved into this basement

I forot about my past and the pain You just erased it

You’re the only one that I can believe in

And thanks to Your love my life has a reason

 Ending

 Looking through the eyes of love

You know the world may seem a better place

And yet the moment that you realise

There’s so much pain before your very eyes