What goes from here?

I haven’t been writing for a while… Been going through a season of breaking my in life so I don’t know if I will be able to come up with some inspiring entries… but I believe people do go through ups and down.. and today because the Lord has placed in my heart to write this entry, I will so do – even if it’s about me and the problems I am facing now.

“To everything there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven.”
– Ecc 3:1

I guess for many students, apart from deciding what to study or major in next, what activities to participate in... our lives are pretty well decided by the wonderful education systems every country has provided. At least for most of us, we have a sure path of where we're heading for the first 18 to 20 years of our lives. But what goes from there?

Since I was reaching the end of my academic highway middle this year, I have been pondering about what I was going to do with my life. I realized that over the many years since I was born, I have gained many skills as an individual. Skills to teach, to lead, to perform, to think, to research, to write… and as many more as you can name it.

There’s been so much that I know, I could probably classify myself as an all-rounder. Not exactly one, but probably a close to be.

But then my heart aches and pains each time I look back at my life, and question, why I haven’t perfected any of my gifting or talents. Is it that there’s a problem with me? Or what the world calls 3 seconds passion towards anything?

This day I stand as a fresh research assistant working in a molecular biology research institute. And here I am again, looking at the next step in my life. Should I continue to work there for a stable income and career, continue with a PhD..? Or.......... take a brave step into the world of arts?

My longtime dream has always been to step into the career of performing arts. But because of the society I was brought up in, this dream seemed like a star too far to catch. Being in Brisbane really changes things… but now looking at things, especially after my very recent performance in the church anniversary, this heart desire has been growing deeper and deeper.

I’m not professionally trained, but I want to be trained. I’m not a great performer, but I aspire to be one. I have heaps of ideas in the theatre of my mind, but no life theatre to air or test them out. I feel like a frog in the well, thinking of the possibilities of this ‘world’ out there, but am too far from it. Some things I have to do while I’m still young. I want to do something well for once in my life. Where is the next step in my life?

Follow the crowd, or follow my passion? Or do I follow the author of my life story, my Lord? Of course the answer is simple – to follow God. For He ultimately has the right plan for my life. But easier said than done. To 'do something well for once in my life', is that really doing it for myself for for God?

It’s a coming journey of faith and trust… and of nurturing..... and maybe even surrendering what I hold dear most.

It’s a heart and spirit battle within me. A time where I’m totally broken, at the edge of choosing either my agenda or God’s.

The Lord has reminded me this day that He has the right plan for my life. And to see the fruits of my work will require time. He has knocked on my mind, reminding me of the promise He has placed in my heart from the beginning of the year.

“perseverance, character; and character, hope”
– Romans 5:4

Pray for me, my friends.

Wait on the Lord

I dedicate this to my sister-in-Christ - Eliza... Remember what we talked on Wednesday @ Holland village? Don't forget it okay...

And to many brothers and sisters in Christ facing crossroads in your lives, may this song speak to you. :) Trust in the Lord.. He'll make your paths right. :)

"Be still, and know that I am God."
- Psalm 46:10 (NIV)

"My sheep hear My voice, and I know them, and they follow Me."
- John 10:27 (LITV)

Wait on the Lord, let Him speak to you. :)

Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight.
- Proverbs 3:5-6 (NIV)

Cardboard Testimonies

God is knocking at your door. He has nothing BAD to offer you, but only GOODNESS and LOVE.
He isn't coming to you with a package to cause you to go into fear...

God loves you.

He loves you.

Even now, He is thinking of you.

He provides you with the resources you need to survive.
He keeps you breathing. He keeps you fed.

You are always on His mind...

If there was 100 steps between you and God, He will take 99 steps to you, and leave that 1 step for you to take. He's already at YOUR door. Will you open it?

May this video bless your heart.. It made me cry, may it touch you. :)


Life before and after Christ changed them.

Most - The Bridge

It hurts to see people know the truth, yet not want to receive it. But I believe in God's timing... and still His love for all.

"Taste and see that the LORD is good;
blessed is the man who takes refuge in him. "
- Psalm 34:8

You never know if an apple is sweet until you try it. You never know you'll love apples until you try it.

Anywayz.. here's a cool video clip I found on Rayson's youtube. Hahaha.... cuz he subscribed to my videos... lol..

Enjoy this.. video.

Home on a Mission

I praise and thank God for such a blessed trip home. Not that it's over, but it's going great here.

I've always heard about people returning home feeling dry spiritually.. and I was prepared for that. But the Lord spoke to me, "You're going home on a mission."

Though I didn't really understood it the time He spoke, it remained in my heart.

PRAISE THE LORD. Just 15 minutes before we entered the departure hall, the Lord saved my mother. I cried, I did. What better joy is there to see your loved one come to know the Lord, and to step up in courage and faith to receive the salvation Jesus has offered. Now my mum has taken the step to know the Lord and to walk with Him... praise God... PRAISE GOD!

It's hard to be a baby Christian, but I'm thankful that God has allowed me this chance to guide my mum in her walk! Isn't it awesome..? And for a start, I got my mum...

Purpose Driven Life by Rick Warren (Chinese Version)
and
bilingual HOLY BIBLE

She's been faithfully reading the purpose driven life!!! PRAISE GOD!!
And you may be wondering what the other Bibles are for? :)

I also bought my mum a manga version of the Gospel cuz she was having difficulty understanding the Gospel. It's a cool way of learning... this book spurted my growth in the word. I'd greatly encourage all to read it!

Manga Messiah

Mum has been faithfully reading this book too!! It's so good... PRAISE GOD PRAISE GOD!!

I love the book, and it's so anime/manga like. And they made Jesus and his disciples so cool/cute/good looking. :P

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Well on another note, I've been yearning for more spiritual growth... and food... and thank God for He led me to Hope Singapore yesterday... and I never regretted going. The presence of the Lord was so strong... that I heard from Him... so much.

"Where's your faith? Have faith in me."
"All that aside... where's your faith?"
"Leave all that aside... start with your faith."

Yes... faith..

"Where is your faith?" he asked his disciples.
In fear and amazement they asked one another, "Who is this? He commands even the winds and the water, and they obey him."
- Luke 8:25

Immediately Jesus reached out his hand and caught him. "You of little faith," he said, "why did you doubt?"
- Matthew 14:31

The Lord reminded me the source of my spiritual zeal - fellowship with the Holy Spirit.

The Holy Spirit is a person, not a power. Though I know that in my mind... subconsiously have I began to think of anointing, empowerment and leading of the Holy Spirit as a boost to me physically and mentally. Yet the Lord saved me from drowning within such subconsious thoughts... and brought me back once again into this realisation - fellowship with the Holy Spirit.

Yes... the Holy Spirit is a person, and He lives in us. He is the Spirit of God and the Spirit of Jesus.

You, however, are controlled not by the sinful nature but by the Spirit, if the Spirit of God lives in you. And if anyone does not have the Spirit of Christ, he does not belong to Christ.
- Romans 8:9

And do not grieve the Holy Spirit of God, with whom you were sealed for the day of redemption.
- Ephesians 4:30

Yes.. a power cannot grieve, nor does a power have knowledge and will (1 Cor 2:11), a mind (Rom 8:27) or love (Rom 15:30).

Yeah... and the point I made the decision to come back into a closer relationship with God, I feel the spiritual fulfillment once again. God looks after His children.. and will do all things to lead them back to Him.

Praise the Lord.

I'm going to M'sia (Muar) in a few a few hours... and I believe God has something in store for this short little trip too!

PRAISE THE LORD FOREVER!!!