Reminder

Today I was reminded again... of January. 

Jan01: Signed up for a Faith 2011 Package with God!
Jan02: I just wanna be the friend who can relate to Jesus, especially in times where it seems like everyone else ain't flipping the pages.
Jan05: Faith lesson began. Troubles but God sent E-Word to me: 'Because God is in control, we have nothing to fear'.Whao..
Jan08: Worshipping God in the morning is so refreshing.. "I'll add unto your portion, but you won't carry it by yourself.. the Spirit will carry it." My role is to remain in Him and walk by the Spirit.

Jan18 - I wrote a blog entry:

2011 will be a deep journey of faith. Faith is more than what we know. Faith is totally letting go, and let God be in control, trusting Him no matter what happens.

What is this year for me? I don't know. But I know God is in control.

A shaking off of loose bits that I don't need to take to heaven with me.
A tightening of what matters to God, the filling of oil in my lamps.
A holding on to Him so much tighter than before, because the time is drawer near.
Finding peace and knowing Him, day and night.

To run when necessary, to rest when necessary.
To fight when called, to retreat when commanded.
To let lose of my reigns, and trust that I will not fall off cuz God's holding on to me.

Right now

I'm facing what seems like a tall and high wall before me. Am I supposed to jump over it?
Remaining stagnant for the moment, and re-thinking.
If this was a journey and I've been going from somewhere to a destination, then that means I have not really been moving for the past 1 week.
And so what have I been doing? Re-thinking.
And in my re-thinking, I found once again the reason why I'm on this journey.
Feels like, a check point to refuel and re-think. Probably erect an altar and worship the Lord here.
This tall wall ahead of me, only the Lord can help cross.

My desires laid bare. My weakness revealed.
His grace fills. His strength empowers.

The head vs heart knowledge, and the faith and deeds struggle.

I give my all to You

Send me and I will go for You

To the ends of the earth

I'll follow after You

I want the world to know

Your love endures forever

Tell me and I will obey

This is far greater than sacrifice

Trusting You and not myself

Will always lead to blessing

Lord have your way in me

Not my will Yours be done

Here I stand within Your Presence longing for Your touch

A thousand days cannot compare to one day in Your courts

Hold me now and never ever let me go

My Jesus, my precious Saviour

I'm forever Yours

This song... reminded me about the heart I offered to Jesus about 3 and half years ago. Have I regretted it?
Thinking through... no. This is my life and the way I have decided to live my life.

I had a vision of what Heaven was going to be like... what the new Earth was going to be like when Jesus returns and makes everything right.

What suffering right now, will be made perfect in His time.

But there are things I'm praying for that will be loosen, and things that will be bound right now, so it will be in Heaven too.

The journey continues...