My Salvation Testimony

I shared how I got to know Jesus and how He touched and saved me earlier this year (Feburary) at Church.

Was supposed to post this up but I forgot! But then again, I'm thankful of the friends who have been reminding me... so yes, finally it's up! Sorry it took so long!

My Salvation Testimony

I will first start with a Bible verse that will depict how I was before and after I met Jesus.

In 1 Corinthians 13:13, it says “And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.” With that, I would like to use these three elements to speak of how I once again found these three elements in my life.

Before I became a Christian, I was a strong believer of Buddhism, a religion that did not believe in faith. I went to the temple to chant and studied deeply in their doctrines. I was so into the teachings and lifestyle that the thought of becoming a Buddhist nun crossed my mind many times. My strong believe in Buddhism grew me into a person who was anti-Christ and anti-faith.

I so strongly believed that Buddhists were the only people who knew how life operated and with all the teachings, I began to think that I was a person with great wisdom. I always thought that people who lived by faith were ignorant. And I went around labeling Christians as people who were ‘lost’.

In the past year, I came to church not with the intention to know more about God, but to find fault and error in the teachings, so that I could lead people away from God. However, that never happened. Time and again, I was touched by the love that Judah 5 showed to one another, and even to unbelievers like me. But I always brushed that off and labeled them as just trying to lure me into joining them.

In 2006, I had a boyfriend who was always in depression and no matter how I tried, I could not help him. He had also dabbled in black magic as a child and had a bondage to the spiritual world. There were even occasions I experienced spiritual presences that led me to be fearful of the dark ever since. It took me a year and a half to end the relationship because each time I tried to do so, he said he would die if I leave him. Eventually, the relationship ended but by then, I had lost hope in many aspects of life.

I felt that there was no point being too nice to others anymore, for it could probably just land me in such an unfixable situation. During that period, I felt that almost all the energy of my life has been sucked dry. I began to shun away from associating too much with people. The least I knew about the lives of others, the better it was. If I were to help others, it would be just because my body wants to, not because I love them. To me, love was just doing things to make others happy. Basically, at that point in time, my life consisted of nothing, but just doing things for the sake of doing things. There was no faith, no hope, and no true love.

Last year, Judah 5 and I came together to celebrate Eliza’s 21^st birthday, where I wrote a song for her. Eliza came with me from Singapore was my closest friend since then. That day, I was touched by the love shown by every single one, and how everyone came together to make it possible, and that by myself it could never have happened. Not only that, I found that there was something lacking in my life. All the love I was able to give, and all the effort I could commit to a certain thing or all the ideas and songs I could write could not give me any fulfillment at all. Although this was just a small event, but it was the cause of the biggest turning point in my life.

That night, Rayson brought Yvonne, Eliza and I up to a mountain top and in his car, where for 2 – 3 hours, he shared about God. It wasn't the first time he shared. But that moment, I began to realize what I was trying to avoid. For a while, I had already begun to believe that Christianity is the religion that carried the most truth, and most logical explanation for everything. Yet, I was afraid to accept it, due to the fact that I didn’t want to step out of Buddhism, my comfort zone.

However, that night after I went home, this brother’s words lingered in my heart the whole night and I was unable to sleep. God’s love is true and I could no longer deny it… and so the very next day, I self-invited myself to join CDS in the afternoon and accepted Christ during my very first CDS lesson.

It was really a hard decision to make for me to abandon all my Buddhist lifestyle and teachings. That was how ‘attached’ I was to Buddhism. To me, it felt like I was breaking off with a life partner that has been with me for a long time. But from there, I felt the spirit of deception leave me, and I was opened in my spiritual eyes and ears. The moment I made the decision, I could sense God holding me and telling me that from that very moment onwards, He will guide me and be with me throughout everything. It was like entering a relationship with God, without bondages.

Looking back, being a person without faith, hope and love, I could not see where my life was heading. I’m glad and thankful that God has brought me into His kingdom and showed me that there is a place where I can start anew.

All the energy that I have once lost, He has now graciously given upon me. Now, putting my faith in God has helped me learn to trust and lean on Him in all occasions. He has taught me that one of the most important aspects in life is to have faith in Him, the provider of all creation.

God has also taught me during the Hope-filled seminar what true biblical Hope is. In my walk with Him, I have learnt to have a biblical expectation of life without bondages.

Last but not least, the greatest of all, God has taught me to love once again. Love with meaning and love that is true. For God has brought me to Him by showing me what true love is. I was touched by His love, and from there, I will fill myself with His love, and let it overflow to many other lives out there.

So as I have started, I would like to end with 1 Cor 13:13. “And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love."

Confession of Faith - Water Baptism

So, a December entry. Again the Lord has been challenging me in writing, and truly the passion is growing back. Sometimes I wonder why I've chosen Science, but then again, many the plans in a m
an's heart right. I'll let the Lord lead and light the way. And meanwhile, faithfully doing what I've been called to do, and serving as His Spirit leads.

"In his heart a man plans his course, but the LORD determines his steps."
- Proverbs 16:9 (NIV)

Even as I re-prioritised my life over the last year, I found myself not giving up writing - an extended limb for my life. Recently, I have found my novel/script again, and am continuing on writing my fourth story - Vanness' Teenage Love Story. Many might have found my first 2 stories, some lucky ones have read my 3rd one (which has been deleted because I forgot to lock it in the archive section), and some have been awaiting my fourth.

Anyway, cut the long story short. I was doing a little bit more research to write my fourth story and chanced upon a series of links - my 'kor kor's' blog. Ok.. I know I should stop saying this. Anyway, if you know who my 'kor' is... not da ge, but my 'kor kor', you know what I mean.

Anyways.. I should stop my broken English now, and just let the picture paint the story for your eyes. It touched me so much, and I don't know how much it means to you, but it did to me.
Praise God for the work He's done in so many different lives.

Then Jesus came to them and said, 'All authority in heaven and on earth has been given to me. Therefore, go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you. And surely I will be with you always, to the very end of the age'"
- Matthew 28:18-20

Just something in his words, "In all the years of walking my walk I've never been baptized, or really knew what it meant......and now....I'm still figuring out and trying my best to be honest to myself and let God do the rest....God bless us all."


A picture tells a thousand words. I'm really touched and blessed by this. Some times, we wonder why other have more power than us. It reminds me of the story of Queen Esther, that she had to be placed at a place at a certain time to fulfill the plans God had for her.

This total humbling act of oneself is truly commendable.

This reminds me, I have yet to let all you my valuable friends know of my baptism too. It was on 10th October 2008 - 1 year 1 month and 1 day after I accepted our Lord Jesus Christ into my life.



Looking back, this year of 2008 has indeed been a fruitful one. I believe and look forward to more fruitfulness in the years ahead. Praying for all of ya.

As the year comes closing

Again, I have neglected this site for a long while. Partly cuz there's no internet connection at home, and also because I've been so busy at work. I guess life changes totally once you graduate from the academic realm into the working society. A total change in lifestyle!

Lately God has been challenging me once again to write for him. Got reminded countless times about the parable of the talents. So here I am again, hopefully with more motivated to write...

It's closing to the end of the year where we look back and assess our new year resolutions. I thank God, because I've completed one of them, and that was to complete the Bible within this year. Praise God, I've achieved that. Now I'm back to connect journal... hoho, raw reading of the Bible is really challenging! But God has His plans... and I guess a lot of time, it's perseverance.

At the end of last year and beginning of this year, I set my resolutions together with the Lord. Before the year even began, the Lord had placed upon my heart that this year would be 'A Year of Perseverance'.

The verses He spoke to me were:

"perseverance, character; and character, hope."
- Romans 5:4

Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.
- James 1:4

Blessed is the man who perseveres under trial, because when he has stood the test, he will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love him.
- James 1:12

And the goals for this year:
1. Persevere in praying for family's salvation
2. Persevere in loving people of different characters
3. Persevere in trusting God
4. Complete the Bible in this year

Review of Goal 1 - Persevere in praying for family's salvation

It's a really hard thing to do, but I believe it is always the desire of many to see our family members saved and come to know Christ. It's hard, but God works wonderfully and miraculously. And this year in July, my mum came to know God. It's was such a wonderful day of my life to see my mum come to know God, and to even be able to walk the beginning of her journey in Christ with her!

Thank God for my mother's salvation, and I'll continue to pray for my dad and sister's salvation, and even my extended familys' salvation!

Review of Goal 2 - Persevere in loving people of different character

I remember last year, I had little trust in people. I always thought that I could do many things and people around me couldn't live up to my standards. When I came to know Christ, His word told me that judging people was wrong.

For in the same way you judge others, you will be judged, and with the measure you use, it will be measured to you. "Why do you look at the speck of sawdust in your brother's eye and pay no attention to the plank in your own eye? How can you say to your brother, 'Let me take the speck out of your eye,' when all the time there is a plank in your own eye? You hypocrite, first take the plank out of your own eye, and then you will see clearly to remove the speck from your brother's eye.
- Matthew 7:2-5

That totally crushed me. To realise that the world is a place where people judges others knowingly and unknowingly. It has been incorporated as a culture in our lives. It was a tough start, and a lot of angry times at myself for each time I judge others. But God has brought me through a journey, and at times it's not the anger I should feel about myself, but rejoicing in this journey that God is taking me through.

Knowing God doesn't mean He'll take away your problems. God helps you overcome your problems, not alone but with Him. I think God also helped me make more friends and understand friendships more! Haha... at least nowadays you don't see me always with the guys anymore..

I remember I used to have difficulty hanging out with girls because their discussion topics are always so different from mine. Even to this day, I still have some of these interest differences, but at least I have more girl friends now!

Goal 3 Review - Persevere in trusting God

Being Christian does not mean life becomes easier. It means it gets tougher. Once you are a Christian, the world hates you. So it's a time where you got to stand out there, despite attacks and persecution, to love the world who hates you. It's hard but always look back to the Lord, who came into the world to die for a people who persecuted and hated Him.

I remember it wasn't very long ago where I was on the verge of breaking down and giving up. There the Lord brought me back and set me free from oppression of the enemy. It was not an easy journey for me over the past 3 months because of the very many changes in my life, and of people who left. It was good to see how the Lord moulded me over the last 3 months into coming to Him, setting me through those times to reflect and consider my life before Him.

This day I stand strong in the Lord because of what He has done, not once blaming Him for taking me through a period of rough times. But to also know that no matter what happens, God is in control, He is sovereign!

When God ordains, He sustains!

Revived and stronger than before, the Lord may continue to take me through another test, but I know that no matter what happens, God has ordained me to go through it, and He will sustain me!

And lastly, my fourth goal has been mentioned early in the entry.

I'm so tired now! Haha.. 1 hour more to CDS, but I'm gonna take a nap!

Alright.. ciao people!

What goes from here?

I haven’t been writing for a while… Been going through a season of breaking my in life so I don’t know if I will be able to come up with some inspiring entries… but I believe people do go through ups and down.. and today because the Lord has placed in my heart to write this entry, I will so do – even if it’s about me and the problems I am facing now.

“To everything there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven.”
– Ecc 3:1

I guess for many students, apart from deciding what to study or major in next, what activities to participate in... our lives are pretty well decided by the wonderful education systems every country has provided. At least for most of us, we have a sure path of where we're heading for the first 18 to 20 years of our lives. But what goes from there?

Since I was reaching the end of my academic highway middle this year, I have been pondering about what I was going to do with my life. I realized that over the many years since I was born, I have gained many skills as an individual. Skills to teach, to lead, to perform, to think, to research, to write… and as many more as you can name it.

There’s been so much that I know, I could probably classify myself as an all-rounder. Not exactly one, but probably a close to be.

But then my heart aches and pains each time I look back at my life, and question, why I haven’t perfected any of my gifting or talents. Is it that there’s a problem with me? Or what the world calls 3 seconds passion towards anything?

This day I stand as a fresh research assistant working in a molecular biology research institute. And here I am again, looking at the next step in my life. Should I continue to work there for a stable income and career, continue with a PhD..? Or.......... take a brave step into the world of arts?

My longtime dream has always been to step into the career of performing arts. But because of the society I was brought up in, this dream seemed like a star too far to catch. Being in Brisbane really changes things… but now looking at things, especially after my very recent performance in the church anniversary, this heart desire has been growing deeper and deeper.

I’m not professionally trained, but I want to be trained. I’m not a great performer, but I aspire to be one. I have heaps of ideas in the theatre of my mind, but no life theatre to air or test them out. I feel like a frog in the well, thinking of the possibilities of this ‘world’ out there, but am too far from it. Some things I have to do while I’m still young. I want to do something well for once in my life. Where is the next step in my life?

Follow the crowd, or follow my passion? Or do I follow the author of my life story, my Lord? Of course the answer is simple – to follow God. For He ultimately has the right plan for my life. But easier said than done. To 'do something well for once in my life', is that really doing it for myself for for God?

It’s a coming journey of faith and trust… and of nurturing..... and maybe even surrendering what I hold dear most.

It’s a heart and spirit battle within me. A time where I’m totally broken, at the edge of choosing either my agenda or God’s.

The Lord has reminded me this day that He has the right plan for my life. And to see the fruits of my work will require time. He has knocked on my mind, reminding me of the promise He has placed in my heart from the beginning of the year.

“perseverance, character; and character, hope”
– Romans 5:4

Pray for me, my friends.

Wait on the Lord

I dedicate this to my sister-in-Christ - Eliza... Remember what we talked on Wednesday @ Holland village? Don't forget it okay...

And to many brothers and sisters in Christ facing crossroads in your lives, may this song speak to you. :) Trust in the Lord.. He'll make your paths right. :)

"Be still, and know that I am God."
- Psalm 46:10 (NIV)

"My sheep hear My voice, and I know them, and they follow Me."
- John 10:27 (LITV)

Wait on the Lord, let Him speak to you. :)

Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight.
- Proverbs 3:5-6 (NIV)

Cardboard Testimonies

God is knocking at your door. He has nothing BAD to offer you, but only GOODNESS and LOVE.
He isn't coming to you with a package to cause you to go into fear...

God loves you.

He loves you.

Even now, He is thinking of you.

He provides you with the resources you need to survive.
He keeps you breathing. He keeps you fed.

You are always on His mind...

If there was 100 steps between you and God, He will take 99 steps to you, and leave that 1 step for you to take. He's already at YOUR door. Will you open it?

May this video bless your heart.. It made me cry, may it touch you. :)


Life before and after Christ changed them.

Most - The Bridge

It hurts to see people know the truth, yet not want to receive it. But I believe in God's timing... and still His love for all.

"Taste and see that the LORD is good;
blessed is the man who takes refuge in him. "
- Psalm 34:8

You never know if an apple is sweet until you try it. You never know you'll love apples until you try it.

Anywayz.. here's a cool video clip I found on Rayson's youtube. Hahaha.... cuz he subscribed to my videos... lol..

Enjoy this.. video.

Home on a Mission

I praise and thank God for such a blessed trip home. Not that it's over, but it's going great here.

I've always heard about people returning home feeling dry spiritually.. and I was prepared for that. But the Lord spoke to me, "You're going home on a mission."

Though I didn't really understood it the time He spoke, it remained in my heart.

PRAISE THE LORD. Just 15 minutes before we entered the departure hall, the Lord saved my mother. I cried, I did. What better joy is there to see your loved one come to know the Lord, and to step up in courage and faith to receive the salvation Jesus has offered. Now my mum has taken the step to know the Lord and to walk with Him... praise God... PRAISE GOD!

It's hard to be a baby Christian, but I'm thankful that God has allowed me this chance to guide my mum in her walk! Isn't it awesome..? And for a start, I got my mum...

Purpose Driven Life by Rick Warren (Chinese Version)
and
bilingual HOLY BIBLE

She's been faithfully reading the purpose driven life!!! PRAISE GOD!!
And you may be wondering what the other Bibles are for? :)

I also bought my mum a manga version of the Gospel cuz she was having difficulty understanding the Gospel. It's a cool way of learning... this book spurted my growth in the word. I'd greatly encourage all to read it!

Manga Messiah

Mum has been faithfully reading this book too!! It's so good... PRAISE GOD PRAISE GOD!!

I love the book, and it's so anime/manga like. And they made Jesus and his disciples so cool/cute/good looking. :P

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Well on another note, I've been yearning for more spiritual growth... and food... and thank God for He led me to Hope Singapore yesterday... and I never regretted going. The presence of the Lord was so strong... that I heard from Him... so much.

"Where's your faith? Have faith in me."
"All that aside... where's your faith?"
"Leave all that aside... start with your faith."

Yes... faith..

"Where is your faith?" he asked his disciples.
In fear and amazement they asked one another, "Who is this? He commands even the winds and the water, and they obey him."
- Luke 8:25

Immediately Jesus reached out his hand and caught him. "You of little faith," he said, "why did you doubt?"
- Matthew 14:31

The Lord reminded me the source of my spiritual zeal - fellowship with the Holy Spirit.

The Holy Spirit is a person, not a power. Though I know that in my mind... subconsiously have I began to think of anointing, empowerment and leading of the Holy Spirit as a boost to me physically and mentally. Yet the Lord saved me from drowning within such subconsious thoughts... and brought me back once again into this realisation - fellowship with the Holy Spirit.

Yes... the Holy Spirit is a person, and He lives in us. He is the Spirit of God and the Spirit of Jesus.

You, however, are controlled not by the sinful nature but by the Spirit, if the Spirit of God lives in you. And if anyone does not have the Spirit of Christ, he does not belong to Christ.
- Romans 8:9

And do not grieve the Holy Spirit of God, with whom you were sealed for the day of redemption.
- Ephesians 4:30

Yes.. a power cannot grieve, nor does a power have knowledge and will (1 Cor 2:11), a mind (Rom 8:27) or love (Rom 15:30).

Yeah... and the point I made the decision to come back into a closer relationship with God, I feel the spiritual fulfillment once again. God looks after His children.. and will do all things to lead them back to Him.

Praise the Lord.

I'm going to M'sia (Muar) in a few a few hours... and I believe God has something in store for this short little trip too!

PRAISE THE LORD FOREVER!!!

The Unreserved LOVE has for all

It pains me to see people walking aimlessly. It pains me to know people are getting hurt out there day after day, trying different paths and feeling rejection and failures.

The world tries to contend themselves with philosophies about life and theories of how life should be, the way things work and the way things COULD work.

I was one of them too. Bumping around aimlessly.. seeking what I thought to be the truth, with great philosophy and worldly 'wisdom'. I was blind but now I see. And I cannot just stop at this. For the love of Christ has compelled me to share. You can hate me but I can't hold back what I carry.

I carry not money, not abilities and not fame. But I carry the Gospel that saves.

I am not ashamed of the gospel, because it is the power of God for the salvation of everyone who believes: first for the Jew, then for the Gentile.
- Romans 1:16

There is an unreserved love waiting at the doorstep of many ones - YOUR doorstep. But are youwilling to give it a try - to taste it? There's no bondages to tasting it.. You won't know if an apple is sweet until you try it. Set the philosophies aside that may cast you into more questions and uncertainty.

Taste and see that the LORD is good; blessed is the man who takes refuge in him.
- Psalm 34:8

If there are 100 steps between you and God, He will take that 99 steps to you, and leave that 1 step for you to take. God is good.. for I haven't seen one saved and remain the same anymore. This day salvation is for all for believes and choose to take up this gift at your doorstep. A gift that you will never know its goodness unless you open it.

I just want to end this entry with a little youtube video of my life group's welcoming performance for the first orientation week. Enjoy it!


It's not exactly perfect but it's the presence of God's sweetness that touches lives. :)

And to add on with another Youtube video that I posted yesterday - Eliza's farewell performance video.

It was one of these events that led me to God. May you enjoy the video and be touched by God's love. :-)

Job + House

Being reminded about the existence of our beloved Judah 5 blog I decided to pop over and looked through the "Sharing" tab... which I then began to read through the articles I've posted a very long time ago... it brought back great memories.

I can say I''ll never regret writing any articles that conveyed the Lord's goodness in my life, and the baby steps I took in this new life freely given to me. The Lord is faithful and great, and His mercy flows and extends to all!

And with that, I would like to share how great God has been in my life of late.

I believe many of you would have known how God was taking me through a time of testing in the past month... facing persecution from my family, getting spiritual attacks, problems finding a job and house, getting depressed @ the visa application... etc.

But it is great what the Lord has taught me through this time, and during that time God even gave me a dream a few weeks ago, telling me about the future. I woke up knowing surely it was a dream from God... for the peace and joy that came with it was the taste of God.

That dream really took all these burdens off my sack and I truly began to commit to the Lord His calling for me to remain in Brisbane.

God doesn't contradict himself... so if He has called me to stay in Brisbane, He will surely provide a place for me to stay, and a job.

"Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?
- Matthew 6:25-27 (NIV)

I learnt once again, that when God does not give us the things we ask for directly, it is not because he doesn't care, but because He wants to teach us something. And this day, I strongly believe God was teaching me to trust Him even more during these events. Teaching me to trust in the promises He had given to me. Things may not be flowing and progressing the way I WANT it, but as long as it is the way GOD WANTS it... let them be done. Cuz our Father loves us, and never will he give us something that is bad for us.

And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.
- Romans 8:28 (NIV)

Yes!! God works for the GOOD of those who love Him.

Seek the Lord heart, and love the Lord. And seek Him for His purposes for you, and not your purposes for Him. When you see God truly, He will tell you His secrets and His will for you. Pray in His will, walk in His will... and glory lies in the days ahead.

"Teacher, which is the greatest commandment in the Law?"
Jesus replied: " 'Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.' This is the first and greatest commandment.
- Matthew 22:36-38

So do not worry, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?' For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.
- Matthew 6:31-33

And yes.. those were what the Lord that taught me during the last few weeks. And when I finally comprehended that, not just in the mind, but in the heart, the Lord began to set His plans before me. And that was what I learnt!

It's not just about us KNOWING what He wants us to know. But us, truly comprehending it, setting it upon our hearts, and taking that step of Faith to really put that conviction within our hearts, to say YES, I will do this. And not.. Yes, I know this.

There is a difference between knowing and doing!

It was many months of praying and fasting... times of struggling and spiritual warfare. Extra daily QT devotional with God made it better though... to truly have God's presence and commune with Him is a great thing. A personal relationship with God..

God is our friend! And friends tell us their secrets. So if God isn't telling you any secrets lately... check your walk with Him. Have you been listening? Or have you been spending enough time with Him, so that He would tell you His secrets? Because the gentle voice speaks of many words of encouragements or things of the future that are to come.. the Lord can tell you wonders, only if you would listen.

The secret of the LORD is with them that fear him; and he will show them his covenant.
- Psalm 25:14 (KJV)

The LORD confides in those who fear him; he makes his covenant known to them.
- Psalm 25:14 (NIV)

The Lord confides in us His secrets when we put Him first in our lives. The joy of hearing His secret is always overwhelming. I'm sure many of us have heard a secret or two from the Lord in our walk with Him... a gentle voice, a dream or vision. Isn't that feeling awesome? I would strongly encourage all of us to dig deeper and commune in greater fellowship with God. Because God desires it! He wants it!

Glory in his holy name; let the hearts of those who seek the LORD rejoice.
Look to the LORD and his strength; seek his face always.
- 1 Chronicles 16:10-11

"And you, my son Solomon, acknowledge the God of your father, and serve him with wholehearted devotion and with a willing mind, for the LORD searches every heart and understands every motive behind the thoughts. If you seek him, he will be found by you; but if you forsake him, he will reject you forever.
- 1 Chronicles 28:9

God called King David a man after His own heart. And David, when charging Solomon with the Land of Israel, reminded him the virtue of seeking the Lord. Let us seek the Lord daily and deeply! Amen!

The poor will eat and be satisfied; they who seek the LORD will praise him-- may your hearts live forever!
- Psalm 22:26

The lions may grow weak and hungry, but those who seek the LORD lack no good thing.
- Psalm 34:10

So last week I was rejected for the house at Durham street, which was quite a disappointment for me as that house was great and awesome. Then I began to have doubts as to whether God truly wanted me to stay. I was feeling so discouraged for things were not working out, not for my job application, not for my visa application.. and also not for my accommodation.

Especially I felt like I was on a stranded island where I was handling these all alone... and on the other hand my family kept wanting me to go back home to find a job. I even came to the point telling them that I would if I could.. why go through all these trouble and stress? I still remember truly submitting all of these upon the feet of Jesus and handing these to Him.

But when God promises He will let things come to pass. And if God has called me to stay, He has a good plan for me. If I chose to run away and go back home, things won't be good for me, because then I won't be in God's perfect will! Always choose and do what God has called you to do, even if it takes a toll upon your life. Because God is training and testing us, to see if we are perservering and overcoming osbtacles.

That night I was so devastated I cried out to the Lord. Lord, if you want me to stay, PLEASE open doors for me.

This week God answered my prayers.. so many of them.

But I want to highlight these:

1. God gave me a unit at Brisbane Street! And it's $10 cheaper than the Durham street house! It has a garrage... and the house is in a good condition and really comfy.. and it's just above Elysaa's house. YAY!

2. God gave me a job as an RA @ IMB! Just as I prayed for.. as I prayed for God to give me a job @ IMB only if it is in His will. I even had a thought all the time for God to allow me for a job interview where I can share my faith with the interviewers.. and guess what? My employer asked me about my social life and I say I go to Church, and we talked a little about Church and stuff during the interview! ---- the best thing God blessed me with was they were gonna sponsor my visa application which means I don't have to pay a single cent!!! PRAISE GOD!!!

PRAISE GOD!!!

God is faithful... my entry can never fully express how real and great God has worked in my life. But I know He is real and His promises all came to pass.

Our God is a God who provides. He is Jehovah-Jireh. (Meaning: Jehovah's provision shall be seen." (see Genesis 22:8,14)

To add upon this blessing.. the employer (I would call Group leader) wanted me to work in early August. But I told him I can only work mid August the earliest cuz I was going back home. He said, "This might be a problem."

And I thought about it... and told God, "If it is your will to let me have the job... this won't matter.. if they don't employ me, and it's your will I will go with it. But Lord, allow me to petition, allow me to pray for this job. But eventually, let it be your will."

God answered my prayers... the job was given to me.. and the dates weren't a problem... and I was even given the choice to start work in early September if it was better for me.. which means I can stay home for my brother's birthday!!!
PRAISE THE LORD!!!

God is real... God is... so real in my life.

People may ask why I could change from being such a devoted Buddhist to a Christian... I will tell you, because I was a seeker of the truth. (I will post my salvation testimony someday.)

But seek the Truth and ask questions, because God is not afraid of questions, and He will answer you, if you let Him. No matter amount of good deeds on does will never cover up the fact that they we are sinners, and the good deeds of sinners are like that of dirty water.

Dirty water can never be used to wash dirty clothes.
Sinners can never save themselves, they need a sinless man to save them. And the only sinless man is God, who is Holy and Righteous.

"For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.
For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but to save the world through him.
- John 3:16-17

So God came as a man to redeem sinful man... dying for our sins as He carried them upon the cross. He died and rose again 3 days later, and so will all man who believe in Him rise again and be saved from eternal death.

I was just talking to Joy today about the motivation point about one doing good in Buddhism.. and that is gain merits for the 'so called next life' they believe in - so that they can be reincarnated in a higher realm, or escape the lower realms.. to transfer merits etc. (I won't go into that... lol.. ask me personally if you wanna know more.)

The motivational point is for self purposes... to save oneself from condemnation as they believe in. However, Christians love because God first loved us.

We love because he first loved us.
- 1 John 4:19 (NIV)

What is Love... someone might next ask.

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Agapao (verb) and agape (noun). This is the "Christian love" of the Bible. It means affection, benevolence, good-will, high esteem and concern for the welfare of the one loved. It is deliberate, purposeful love rather than emotional or impulsive love. Almost all of the New Testament references to love are agapao or agape in the original Greek. The King James Version of the Bible sometimes translates agape as "charity," but charity has now taken on the meaning of assistance to the poor rather than benevolent love.

Phileo (verb). This means to love in an impulsive and emotional way. It is seldom used in the Bible, but there is a play on words (lost in English) in John 21:15-17. Jesus says to Peter, "Simon son of John, do you truly love (agapao) me?" Peter answers, "Yes, Lord, you know that I love (phileo) you." Philadelphia is a related word meaning the love of brothers or sisters (e.g., Romans 12:10). It is often translated "brotherly love."

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If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal.
If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing.
If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames, but have not love, I gain nothing.
- 1 Cor 13:1-3

Then it goes on to say:

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.
It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.
Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.
It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away.
- 1 Cor 13:4-8

And then one of my favourite verses:

And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.
-1 Cor 13:13

Other verses for your spirit:

Love does no harm to its neighbor. Therefore love is the fulfillment of the law.
- Romans 13:10

Love must be sincere. Hate what is evil; cling to what is good. Be devoted to one another in brotherly love. Honor one another above yourselves.
- Romans 12:9-10

There are so many more verses in the Bible that talks about the love of God for all His people. Let us look beyond our own lives and to our neighbour's lives. Take a second look and you may realise a struggling soul beside. Still yourselves a little and hear from God's gentle voice as you live His will and pray His will.

Be faithful in prayer and commit to the Lord your plans, and you will succeed.

Commit to the LORD whatever you do, and your plans will succeed.
- Proverbs 16:3

Well, I hope it's not too long an entry... since I haven't written in such a long while. But yeah, to my brothers and sisters-in-Christ out there if you are reading this, may this entry encourage you on your walk with God.
And in any case, should any lucky soul chance upon this blog and is still not a believer of Christ, I hope God has touched you using my little humble entry... and remember, don't afraid to ask God questions, cuz God loves to answer them!

God bless you this day and may we all walk in the perfect will of God, for He has the best plans for all of us if we claim His promises!

Amen.

My prayer has always been to arm myself more efficiently with His Sword anointed by His Spirit.

Through a time of Testing

I hate the devil.

Love must be sincere. Hate what is evil; cling to what is good.
- Romans 12:9 (NIV)

Using my closed ones against me. To falsely say all kinds of evil against me. Using my closed ones to doused the flame of my faith, to hurt me..

Been threading on enemy grounds lately... sharing the gospel almost everyday... and the devil ain't happy with me. I sense that strong spiritual warfare.

I'm pleased... I got on the devil's nerves. The more he tries, the stronger my armor gets.

Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand. Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around your waist, with the breastplate of righteousness in place, and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace. In addition to all this, take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one. Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God.
- Ephesians 6:13-17 (NIV)

For at least this day I know I'm pleasing God and not the devil.

Salvation is not a one step process, and I shouldn't feel discouraged or dejected... even though rejection and persecution from family members are hard... But like what Elysaa said, they love me and that's why they want me to know what I truly am doing.

Why did I even succumb to the lies of the devil initially, despite knowing it is partially wrong? The Lord knows my path and yearns for His children to draw closer to Him all the time, not further. And never will He allow me to leave, unless I choose to... even so that wouldn't be a overnight thing, and His Holy Spirit is always within me as I choose to obey and be guided by Him.

And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. For those God foreknew he also predestined to be conformed to the likeness of his Son, that he might be the first born among many brothers. And those he predestined, he also called; those he called, he also justified; those he justified, he also glorified.
- Romans 8:28-30

Yes... why am I so worried about the future? The Lord has my life all placed in the end and He sees my whole life...

Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.
- Matthew 6:34

For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.
- Jeremiah 29:11-13

Yes... God has plans to prosper me and not to harm me... Those disturbing thoughts that took peace away from my heart were definitely not of the Holy Spirit. God will never device a plan for me to leave Him... He may bring me through trials and testings... but He will teach me the way to overcome them too.. And never will they be harder than I can take.

And the Lord brought to me last night a comforting reminder..

Blessed are you when people insult you, persecute you and falsely say al lkinds of evil against you because of me. Rejoice and be glad, because great is your reward in heaven, for in the same way they persecuted the prophets who were before you.
- Matthew 5:11-12

The Lord has never failed me.... and the Lord has given me insights and promises. I will hold on to them.. Salvation is a process... and I'm thankful for the opportunities the Lord has given me to plant seeds.

Despite this persecution, I'm thankful for the chance to share.

I need to trust more... and really even during this time of crossroads... pray that God will open up doors for me...

Thank you for the so many ones who encouraged me over the past few days..

Christ Mix Umbrella - Lyrics

R&B never cease to keep a smile upon my face. What's even better is when you Praise the Lord with it!

Can't help but place it here again even when you've seen this before.



Loving this for I managed to figure out the lyrics for Christ Mix - Umbrella!

Verse:
I gave you my heart
In exchange for a brand new start
Lord then you made me clean
And you set me apart

You see I was in the dark
But you're the bright and morning star
Now with your amazing grace
You keep a smile upon my face

Chorus:
Because
When the son die He didn't die forever
Put Him in a tomb and three days later
Died on a cross and rose again
Dip me in His blood and washed away my sins, sins sins, eh eh
Thank the Lord I'm born again, ain ain ain... yeah~

Rap:
Look, her daddy been gone, her momma left when she was seven
Stuck a relative she didn't know was there a heaven
Wish I could grow wings and fly away from this place
That's what she told me but wiping tears from my face

But everytime you cry the Lord feels your pain
So put a fist in the air, you're ready for change
The race is not given to the swift or to the strong
You gotta endure I'm telling you to hold on

The Confused Flower

There was a flower who always felt inferior and was filled with insecurities. As a baby shoot it grew and grew, and so did the insecurities. Birds flew by and many mocked and spat at the flower. All the other flowers had birds and insects lay upon them, and this flower's insecurities grew stronger.

The flower began to work on its inner beauty, knowing that someday, a bird may land due to its inner sweetness. Time passed and some birds came, and one of them grew to spend more time with the flower. The flower for once felt genuine attention and care. Yet the flower was being taken away from the bird to a foreign land to be nutured by its owner. Both were sad, yet they believed they were going to meet and be together some day.

Out in the new foreign land, the flower stood silent amidst the strangers. It didn't care about the birds nor the insects. Yet time passed and the flower met another bird whom treated the flower with even more attention and care. The flower and the bird grew closer and happier together until one day, the flower heard a song in the wind that brought back sudden memories of the bird back in its hometown.

The flower's eyes closed for a moment, and was brought back to reality and confusion. There were two birds. The owner of the flower loved one bird deeply for the bird loved the owner too. The other bird was just a bird flying without knowing the flower's owner... The flower, however, believes in the day that the bird to come to know its owner.

The flower thought back to the days of its past and questioned its owner, to dawn upon itself the truth and the uncertainties yet to come by its way. The flower will never know where its owner will take it, and which bird the owner will allow for the flower. The flower does not want either bird to be hurt. The flower is filled with grieve choosing to hurt itself by running away and hiding its feelings.

The flower is filled with questions and uncertainties... yet will choose to understand and draw closer to its owner and walk its owner's way...... It is good that the flower has its owner to talk to, and an owner who loves and care for the flower. The flower's path is always in its owner's hands and happiness too. So the flower should not worry, but just return to the owner, humbled and contrite for the owner's love and comfort.

Poor flower, it's feeling so sad and confused. Let's pray for that flower...

An Insight into a Patient's Heart

Was led to some thinking lately, probably with a certain ulcer that grew at the back on my right jaw muscle that refrained me from moving my jaw. That was a period of 4 days. Those four days I experienced difficulty eating, talking and sleeping.

To make things worse, the second day of such a fix (I would classify) was boosted with another growth of ulcer on the left underside of my fore lips. Brilliant, a disabled back jaw muscle on the right and a supplement to go with, with an ulcer on the front – the left.

Eating was horrible; I practically had to stuff food into my mouth, for I couldn’t control my mouth. Food tasted meaningless to me, other than to fill my grumbling gastric. Eat mouthful was stinging pain, and could get choking when things don’t fit into my buccal cavity. Sorry for the scientific terms, I meant mouth.

In the midst of my grumbles, a thought fell upon me. I was glad I could still grumble, and type my frustration to friends online. There was a minute population on earth that do not have that luxury. I’m sure they wouldn’t mind a couple of ulcers, as long as they could type or grumble.

Stroke patients.

It dawned upon my mind their inability to voice their concerns, their emotions… and that’s probably why we don’t even understand why they cry. I’ve never closely known a stroke patient, and don’t really know how they feel. This little uncomfortable event I’ve experienced the past few days have led me into such an insight that I stopped complaining about my little ‘discomfort’. I can’t help but just grieve at the fact that these individuals may have to suffer in such a closed up world, for maybe the last few years of their lives… I would say that is misery.

Beyond this realisation, I began to put myself in their shoes… all that I was grumbling about became part of what they could possibly be thinking all the time. Being fed all meals a day, having food shoved into their mouths, yet still drooling and having scraps of food fallen all over their face and shirts at that age, it’s a helpless feeling. During my short period of ‘misery’, I faced the same challenges – trying to shove food in and having them fall all over, spending double the time eating, as I usually required.

I began to use these events as a way that God was leading me to the hearts of stroke/disable patients, that brought me back to an event last Christmas with my Live Group – Bring-a-smile.



That day bringing a smile to many elderly people in the nursing home with a cheerful Gospel play was our purpose. After the play, we headed around to bless them with gifts, cards and biscuits.

They were blessed and happy, but there were some residents who seemed pretty unresponsive. I would say I didn’t have much courage to approach them, and the only time I grabbed the courage, the resident didn’t respond, but look me in the eye. I stood back there, and looked him back in the eye too, of course with a smile. A little more courage, I asked a question, “Merry Christmas. Did you enjoy the show?”

There was no response, but he looked me in the eye.

I stood there a little while longer, and I was lost for words, and could only just stand there, and look at my other friends who were speaking so happily to others. I took a step back, smiled and pointed to the resident there was elsewhere I was heading to. And I walked off.

It was hard, especially when I didn’t know him, or the things he was going through, whether he understood me or liked the show.

But now I hope I know, and understand how he was feeling. It returned to me, the scene, and I believe he was blessed by the performance, and the gifts. But he couldn’t respond to us. Maybe looking me in the eye was the only thing he could do. But I didn’t know.

I wish I was given more education on how to handle such situations. But I believe it’s not too late to learn. And I really thank God for what seemed to be an insight into the heart of another individual who may be slightly different from me. Yet we all have emotions, it’s the expression that could be different.

Was checking out a website and saw a comment written by someone:

Since my loved one’s stroke, we can no longer talk together. How will we ever learn to communicate with the new disabilities my loved one has?

It can be done, I believe. Especially when it’s your loved one. I believe they feel your heart each time you spend time with them, communicating (though it may be one sided), but they feel it. And the constant assurance and encouragement (and of course PRAYER) will be greatly appreciated by them.

Just a thought… you can teach them to pray with you! (In their heart).
I haven’t truly experienced this myself, and I may be making it sound pretty simple. But… I believe God will reveal more to me in future when He wills.

And this day I can apply the word contextualise further. Further than what I thought it meant. Will we learn to contextualise to the disabled patients this day?

May I truly remember these 4 days of my life… that I may be able to feel the hearts of disabled patients in future.

Coffee with Jesus

Just want to share a wonderful time I experienced during today's worship service, as God led me into close communion with Him. For awhile in my life, I have forgotten that God desires every part of our lives, our good and bad times, and he too, desires to talk with us like a friend.

In the theatre of my mind, God revealed to me once again His tangible presence...

Two cups of coffee (latte and cappucino), in a nice little cafe, just Him and me.

Him: What problems do you have? I'm always here.
Me: I have this problem... my past hurt.... I can't seem to get rid of it... it keeps coming back.
Him: Give it to me. I'll take it from you.
Me: Here Jesus, please take it away...
Him: It's here, in my hands.
Me: *touched without words but tears*

Him: That's not all is it... what other problems do you have? I can sense your heavy heart.
Me: Lord... my present problem... I need to get this accomplished..
Him: Hand it over, I will take it from you.
Me: Here it is Jesus, but....
Him: Trust me.
(And I handed them over too...)

Him: Your burdens have not been emptied yet...
Me: I'm worried about my future... I know certain things are going to happen, and is uncertain about other things... Some things are coming... but some things you've asked me to wait.. I'm afraid. I know you have them all in your hands, but I can't help but worry.
Him: That's because you haven't handed them over. You got to hand it to me.
Me: I will hand them to you.. this day, I will.
Him: I have taken them.
(I felt refreshed.... as I felt His love shower upon me, concerned about my every thing.)

Then the worship service was about to end... I felt Him stand up, putting my troubles in his sack... as His tangible presence was about to fade off.

At the door of the cafe before he exited, I found myself calling out to him:
"Jesus!! Wait... I forgot to tell you to take away my illness.."

He turned back and smiled, "My girl, it's already in my sack, I have taken them."
And he walked out of the cafe.
In the real world, I adjust myself and felt... my illness was almost gone... (it was just there a moment ago... yet it was taken away as he exited the cafe.)

---- ---- ----

And when I thought God took away my problems... God revealed further as I penned down the series of events...

First... God took my PAST in his hands.... and then my PRESENT... and my FUTURE.....
And the part which touched my heart even more... was that He already knew what I needed and wanted... that even when I didn't ask... He already took them away for me...

Immediately Jesus had showered upon me His healing power without me knowing..

"My girl, it's already in my sack, I have taken them."

Thank you Lord... This day I pen this down, that I may remember your goodness and realness in my life.

Umbrella (Christ Mix)

My second Coffey entry this day! I have no choice but to share this awesome video with all y'all Hip Hop / RnB lovers out there... with the tinge of an accoustic feel... like me!
This guy is amazing and doing that with the guitar!
And guess what, he made this UMBRELLA song into such an AWESOME SONG!

It's a must watch for all, even if you don't like umbrella, you'd be cheered up to your 150%! This guy is flowing with God's cheerfulness! (LOL~) afterall, God created happy days too right!

C'mon watch this!



Love the rap.... he's an anointed guy in this ministry.

Open The Eyes of My Heart

Here's another cool video from Coffey that cheers me up. If you're new to my blog, check out my first entry in my blog, there's a first video I posted from Coffey. That's my favourite!
I wished more musicians could use their talents for God's work!!

Open The Eyes of My Heart



Let God open the eyes of our hearts, that we may see ways to save more souls.
We are SUPPOSED TO WIN SOULS for the LORD!!!

"... and he who wins souls is wise."
-- Proverbs 11:30

The Need To Testify!

Today has been an awesome day. In this context, I would place the word "awesome" in the miraculous events that God has placed in my path this day. What more can I say but GOD IS SO REAL, especially when you desperately hunger and thirst for Him in your life. God sees our hearts, and all He wants is a heart that longs for Him.

In this day where I dwell upon circumstances in my life, God has led me to the following verses.

The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit; a broken and contrite heart, O God, you will not despise.
-- Psalm 51:17 (NIV)

"This is the one I esteem: he who is humble and contrite in spirit, and trembles at my word." -- Isaiah 66:2b (NIV)

Yes Lord, in your word you have said that we should rejoice in suffering (Romans 5:3), which produces perserverence, character and hope. And Lord, this day you have expounded to me that beyond all these, through suffering one learns to humble ourselves unto your mighty hands, a sacrifice of obedience, humility and repentence. Such a heart you do not despise, such a heart you esteem and value.

It is through times like this that God has brought me closer to Him. Even during today's evax, God brought forth a divine appointment (previous entry) that not only blessed him, but us who went for evax. And even what he said made sense, "How can man only remember God in times of problems but forget him in times of happiness?"
That was a question I remember asking Puay Siong when I first attended seekers class in Judah 5.

It seems that sometimes we may take for granted God's Grace and forget His goodness and blessings in our lives. So many times we may sway from our original motives when He pour forth blessings into our lives. Let us keep our hearts checked frequently to prevent taking God for granted! Amen?

Well, I just want to bring this entry to another significant continuation of this day, where I left you from my previous entry. It was amazing to see how God truly planned this day of mine.

After shepherding with Elysaa, I walked at a really slow pace, just to enjoy the cool breeze that autumn was bringing forth. From Brisbane street to my place was a 10 min brisk walk, and 15-20 min stroll. Along the way, I was talking to God and God placed in my heart a desire to share the Gospel, as He led me to a series devotions I have been reading the past few nights. Are we set apart for the Gospel? Or are we too focused upon our own personal whiteness?

"...separated unto the gospel of God"
-- Romans 1:1 (KJV)

Paul did not say he separated himself, but, "when it pleased God who separated me..." Paul had not a hypersensitive interest in his own character. As long as our eyes are upon our own personal whiteness we shall never get near the reality of Redemption. Workers break down because their desire is for their own whiteness, and not for God."
-- My Utmost For His Highest, Oswald Chambers

For Christ didn’t send me to baptize, but to preach the Good News—and not with clever speech, for fear that the cross of Christ would lose its power.
-- 1 Corinthians 1:17 (NLT)

Yet when I preach the gosel, I cannot boast, for I am compelled to preach. Woe to me if I do not preach the gospel. If I preach voluntarily, I have a reward; if not voluntarily, I am simply discharging the trust committed to me. What then is my reward? Just this: that in preaching the gospel I may offer it free of charge, and so not make use of my rights in preaching it.
-- 1 Corinthians 9:16-17 (NIV)

We still have to change and grow to be more and more Christlike and to be holy, for God has commanded us to be a holy people. Yet, this day, do we grab the heartbeat of Jesus and the reason Jesus died for us? To bring His people, those who believe in Him, back into a relationship with the Father once again. And who will bring this good news to the people who have yet to know him? Jesus has commanded us to take upon this Great Commission and preach the Gospel!

He said to them, "Go into all the world and preach the good news to all creation."
-- Mark 16:15 (NIV)

Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you..."
-- Matthew 28:19-20 (NIV)

C'mon people! Do you know you are chosen to do God's work? Even angels are not permitted to preach the Gospel. Do you know that angels look with great desire into the mystery of our salvation?

It was revealed to them that they were not serving themselves but you, when they spoke of the things that have now been told you by those who have preached the gospel to you by the Holy Spirit sent from heaven. Even angels long to look into these things.
-- 1 Peter 1:12 (NIV)

So even as God spoke these to me the past few days, I didn't know where He was leading me to. Then came this burning desire to evax today, which brought upon this refreshing blessed feeling that I haven't felt in awhile. God can use EVAX to bless us too, I must repeat! Especially when you truly seek Him and His ways for you!

Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they will be filled.
-- Matthew 5:6 (NIV)

Yes, this day I've experienced what it truly means to be filled by God's blessings. Not material blessings, but spiritual blessings and fulfillment in a certain room in the heart that can be filled only by God.

So here I'll share the events that happened after shepherding. I write this not to boast but to encourage, and also to record the goodness of God in my life.

With all that God has spoken to me the past few days, I just felt I didn't want to head home. It was only 9pm, too early to head back into my lovely dome. I had to do more of God's work. As I strolled home, I asked God, "God can you bring someone to me or help me meet someone that I may have the chance to share the gospel?"

And I kept on walking, as slowly as possible. As I was about to reach Chais, I felt as though nothing had happened... so my prayer continued, "God, you can't just let me go home as such this day! It'll be so meaningless!"

So amazingly God led this lady to me who approached me for directions to the city. Apparently 412 was the only bus there and she missed the bus, and the next available bus was 1 hour later. I stood there for a moment with her, helping her sort out possible means that she could take to the city, and she then insisted she was fine, and would call her friend. I felt weird leaving her there alone at such an hour at night, but she insisted she was fine so I walked on.

But as I walked ahead, there was this churning within my heart as God brought me back to my prayer earlier. Oh yes! I had to turn back, and so I did. Let's say, if she really had to wait for her bus for 1 hour, that hour can be used to share the gospel to her! So I turned back and began to walk in her direction once again. She then crossed the road opposite the bus stop, and I was like, "God? What is this?"

But I believed in taking the step out in faith, and so I crossed the road after her and asked her if she was really alright. And she said she might take the 412 coming from the other side back to uni. So she boarded the bus, and amazingly James (aka John How) alighted from that very same bus. So we talked about the divine appointment this afternoon and as I headed my way home, I didn't know why God leaded me to that girl when he wanted to send her off to UQ.

But even then, I didn't have any wish to return back home to my lovely dome. I asked God once more, silently in my heart, for another person I could share the gospel to. Once again, amazingly, God put Patrick right before my eyes. No doubt that was Patrick from J1. He was carrying heaps of stuff and was struggling. At the end, I ended up helping him carrying half his stuff back to his house!

After helping him, I felt pretty happy and kind of understood why God made me walk back to that girl. Say.. if I never walked back to that girl, I wouldn't have met James, and we wouldn't have talked and walked slowly... in time to meet Patrick... and help our brother in Christ!

And so with that bit of joy, I returned home. And thinking that was the end of my 'journey' for this day, I was greeted by my housemate, Alex, in the kitchen. The next thing I knew, we began to talk a little, about cooking and stuff. And I sat there for awhile and suddenly, God just once again prompted me to share and testify.

That moment was so real. God just gave me boldness and courage to share. And I told Alex everything that happened from the moment I left Elysaa's house, and how I prayed to God to let me do something before I come home! And I shared with Alex the two people I met, and truly how real God is! And of course, I added the tinge of humour into the way I described it, and Alex was intrigued by it too!

As I returned to my room, I found myself dancing in the presence of God. God is so real, so awesome in this place. If you truly seek Him and His ways with all your heart, and with sincerity, God will reveal to you His plans. God listens to our prayers! And if you ask Him of something with the right intention (e.g. share the gospel), He would be more than glad to listen to you and grant you your wish. God loves us, His children.

Which father would deny his child who comes to him sincerely to help out in his father's business?

And He said to them, “Why did you seek Me? Did you not know that I must be about My Father’s business?”
-- Luke 2:49 (NKJV)

Is your heart burning with excitement for your Father's business this day?
God bless you this day.