Time is a Precious Gift

So right now, I'm supposed to be working on a multimedia but before I start, I thought to write some things here.. Hopefully I don't take too long!

Inception
Watched Inception yesterday. Nice movie. The producer of the movie must have analysed his/her dreams very well... and it's kinda amazing how people come up with such plots. Amazing. So I came home last night... and slept, and dreamt! Haha... as usual.

Only God is Stable and in Control
On another note, I'm tired of trying to figure out what others are thinking. I know I'm a very sensitive person. In fact, over sensitive. And it's not my first revelation that we have totally no control of how others feel, or what things happen.

I'm just really sad that some people shouldn't be thinking the way they should. It hurts to see others in bondage. It hurts to see others not respond the way you want them to. That's why we should never put our hopes in people cuz ultimately, the best person in the world still have their flaws and weaknesses. Only God won't fail us... believe only God.

Your loved ones may fail you, but God wouldn't. I wished the world, and even myself, will start to involve God in everything situation and relationship in our lives.. then the world wouldn't be so bad. Because if we gave our hearts fully to God, know that it is in safe hands.

But humans... forever, unpredictable and unstable. Trust me, it's true.

Don't worry, I'm not writing this because of any BGR thing (just in case you are wondering).

But I think I can understand how Jesus feels when we keep getting hurt by people around us. I mean, look... Jesus said, 'Come to ME'. And yet, we keep going to man for the security and get hurt in the end.

Time Spent Loving
Sometimes, I think I have built too high a wall as a barrier that prevents others from getting too deep into my life. Because I hate being vulnerable when opening up my life to others. But at the same time, without opening up your lives to others, you don't make a friend. In opening up, I do not mean just sharing your feelings and deepest secrets. In 'opening up', I mean just choosing to spend time with others, choosing to go an extra mile for someone... choosing to give up your precious time for others... because time is precious, and it's something you can give and never get back. Sometimes the heartbreaking thing is that no one realises that you gave TIME to them... but they realise it when you don't give TIME to them.

Time.. if you haven't realise, is a gift. And it takes effort for the giver to GIVE, and effort for the receiver to RECEIVE.

To me, TIME is the most precious gift you can give anyone. But at the same time, TIME is the gift that no one sees when you give it. EFFORT is what makes me give TIME as a gift. I always feel that I don't have enough time. But really, God made 365 days in a year, and 24 hours in a day, because He knows that is ENOUGH time for us. There is so much wisdom involved in spending my time. I need God to give me wisdom. Life isn't just about myself, but it's about living with many people around who have different commitments and lifestyle. No one is better than another.... I hope we all understand that.

God has helped me to see the sacrifices of the people around me. And I really want to thank many different ones who gave me their precious gift of TIME. I believe that all the TIME you spent giving, will be greatly poured back into your life by God, whether now or in Heaven when the time comes. As for myself, I pray for God's strength in my life to endure the difficulties of not being appreciated, and yet continue to press forward towards the finishing line.

In friendships, people get hurt. Are we willing to forgive and still love others when hurt? Yes, because I know, if I hurt my friend, I won't want her/him to close up to me, just because of my weaknesses. In the same way, I should forgive others who hurt me unintentionally, because we have different characters. A character clash doesn't mean someone can't be your friend. A character clash means you learn to appreciate the uniqueness of others.

That's what friends are for. Sacrificial love. Unconditional love.

And that's the LOVE that Jesus is talking about.

I'm going to work on my assignment now... till then.

It feels like a Long Day!

So after I posted my little entry this morning... I'm back again, at 1AM (the next day). But it's still the same day, cuz a day doesn't end until I sleep and wake up the next morning...
But let me say according to the calendar... HAPPY 1ST OF AUGUST 2010!

Welcoming myself into another month of this amazing year... I really ought to thank God for all the love He's showered upon me.
I had a good time of thinking to myself, about my life, my God, my surroundings, my family and my ministry. God is still amazing... and I stop at this point in my life, being still and knowing that He is God.

Yes.... Godliness with contentment is great gain. I really want to thank Elysaa for sharing this verse with me. We can never be pleased and satisfied with what we can get from this world, until we realise that our security and life is in Christ. Then... we understand that to be able to enjoy things in this world is actually God's love and grace upon us. For dust we came from, dust we will return to. But certain things, we take eternally in eternity.

I will give you the keys of the kingdom of heaven; whatever you bind on earth will be bound in heaven, and whatever you loose on earth will be loosed in heaven.

- Matt 16:19

So it's been an extremely long day it felt. I woke up in the morning to send Kuzi and Wen Huey to Guyatt Park for their Amazing G-Race game, and then went back home, got excited with my plants and took them out for a nice sun bath on the grass. Then for some reason I began washing the porch and made our porch look really sparkling clean, I don't know if anyone would even notice, but I felt happy.

And then got back in my room, spent some time on the computer filling myself with things I have missed out for awhile, checking how everyone else has been going. And then I wrote my PREVIOUS entry... and headed to Sunnybank to buy hotpot stuff... and myself a nice Cha Time bubble tea that I've been craving for. Hm... Black Bean Sesame Matcha Green Tea! I didn't know there were pearls in there... so I took a small straw, went downstairs to the carpark and my straw got stuck. Then I headed back upstairs to get a larger straw..............  I wonder why some times certain things gotta happen to allow time, events and places to hit at the same spot. For this same season I certainly didn't appreciate entertaining a repeated encounter. But oh well... I love my Matcha Tea anyway!

Well, then after that I came back, researched more on After Effects, and then began the night of hotpot at Eddie's place.

It's been a long day... and we ended with dessert at 16th on the Park. I think that's like my new hangout place... but on the other hand, I am started to get a little bored of it. See... humans, never satisfied!

So tonight, I sit here and wrap up this day, and sign off....

And as I wait for my hair to dry, I'll go read Battlefield of the Mind... and try taming my mind. Certain things may happen and some times I wonder if that was from God, or was my long-time-ago prayer answered... are certain things signs from God...? Or is it just spiritual warfare?

I'm past the stage of choosing to avoid the answer. And so whatever comes come. But sadly to say, I'm also not at the right state to practice spiritual discernment. But, I think at this point in time, it's more of trust and faith in God. For now it's for me to understand contentment, and for me to soak in His Love and Living Water... the rest, won't need to wait. They are not important anymore.

All I want to do now, is to pray for people close to my heart to come to know God... people whom I care for and hope they will come to know the saving Grace of Jesus...

It's not a religion I'm preaching.

It's a relationship with God.

A relationship with our Creator.

Then God said, "Let us make man in our image, in our likeness, and let them rule over the fish of the sea and the birds of the air, over the livestock, over all the earth, and over all the creatures that move along the ground." So God created man in his own image, in the image of God he created him; male and female he created them.

- Genesis 1:26-27

 
I pray God's Light will shine and touch every heart He cares for, and eyes will see and know that He is God.

 

"Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free."

- John 8:32

Each time I surrender, You test my heart.

Each time I get tested, I am on the verge of failing.

But that is how I know the depth of Your Love for me...

It's because You love me, that You show me my inmost feelings...

And as You mould and refine me, will my faith be able to withstand the furnace.

Thank You Lord, for Your Word says...

No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it.

- 1 Corinthians 10:13